YOU know, my dears, that your mother was
an orphan, and an only child; and I dare say you have heard that your grandfather
was a clergyman up in Westmoreland, where I come from. I was just a girl
in the village school, when, one day, your grandmother came in to ask the
mistress if there was any scholar there who would do for a nurse-maid;
and mighty proud I was, I can tell ye, when the mistress called me up,
and spoke to my being a good girl at my needle, and a steady, honest girl,
and one whose parents were very respectable, though they might be poor.
I thought I should like nothing better than to serve the pretty young lady,
who was blushing as deep as I was, as she spoke of the coming baby, and
what I should have to do with it. However, I see you don't care so much
for this part of my story, as for what you think is to come, so I'll tell
you at once. I was engaged and settled at the parsonage before Miss Rosamond
(that was the baby, who is now your mother) was born. To be sure, I had
little enough to do with her when she came, for she was never out of her
mother's arms, and slept by her all night long; and proud enough was I
sometimes when missis trusted her to me. There never was such a baby before
or since, though you've all of you been fine enough in your turns; but
for sweet, winning ways, you've none of you come up to your mother. She
took after her mother, who was a real lady born; a Miss Furnivall, a grand-daughter
of Lord Furnivall's, in Northumberland. I believe she had neither brother
nor sister, and had been brought up in my lord's family till she had married
your grandfather, who was just a curate, son to a shopkeeper in Carlisle--but
a clever, fine gentleman as ever was--and one who was a right-down hard
worker in his parish, which was very wide, and scattered all abroad over
the Westmoreland Fells. When your mother, little Miss Rosamond, was about
four or five years old, both her parents died in a fortnight--one after
the other. Ah! that was a sad time. My pretty young mistress and me was
looking for another baby, when my master came home from one of his long
rides, wet and tired, and took the fever he died of; and then she never
held up her head again, but just lived to see her dead baby, and have it
laid on her breast, before she sighed away her life. My mistress had asked
me, on her death-bed, never to leave Miss Rosamond; but if she had never
spoken a word, I would have gone with the little child to the end of the
world.
The next thing, and before we had well stilled our sobs,
the executors and guardians came to settle the affairs. They were my poor
young mistress's own cousin, Lord Furnivall, and Mr. Esthwaite, my master's
brother, a shopkeeper in Manchester; not so well-to-do then as he was afterwards,
and with a large family rising about him. Well! I don't know if it were
their settling, or because of a letter my mistress wrote on her death-bed
to her cousin, my lord; but somehow it was settled that Miss Rosamond and
me were to go to Furnivall Manor House, in Northumberland; and my lord
spoke as if it had been her mother's wish that she should live with his
family, and as if he had no objections, for that one or two more or less
could make no difference in so grand a household. So, though that was not
the way in which I should have wished the coming of my bright and pretty
pet to have been looked at--who was like a sunbeam in any family, be it
never so grand--I was well pleased that all the folks in the Dale should
stare and admire, when they heard I was going to be young lady's maid at
my Lord Furnivall's at Furnivall Manor.
But I made a mistake in thinking we were to go and live
where my lord did. It turned out that the family had left Furnivall Manor
House fifty years or more. I could not hear that my poor young mistress
had ever been there, though she had been brought up in the family; and
I was sorry for that, for I should have liked Miss Rosamond's youth to
have passed where her mother's had been.
My lord's gentleman, from whom I asked as many questions
as I durst, said that the Manor House was at the foot of the Cumberland
Fells, and a very grand place; that an old Miss Furnivall, a great-aunt
of my lord's, lived there, with only a few servants; but that it was a
very healthy place, and my lord had thought that it would suit Miss Rosamond
very well for a few years, and that her being there might perhaps amuse
his old aunt.
I was bidden by my lord to have Miss Rosamond's things
ready by a certain day. He was a stern, proud man, as they say all the
Lords Furnivall were; and he never spoke a word more than was necessary.
Folk did say he had loved my young mistress; but that, because she knew
that his father would object, she would never listen to him, and married
Mr. Esthwaite; but I don't know. He never married, at any rate. But he
never took much notice of Miss Rosamond; which I thought he might have
done if he had cared for her dead mother. He sent his gentleman with us
to the Manor House, telling him to join him at Newcastle that same evening;
so there was no great length of time for him to make us known to all the
strangers before he, too, shook us off; and we were left, two lonely young
things (I was not eighteen) in the great old Manor House. It seems like
yesterday that we drove there. We had left our own dear parsonage very
early, and we had both cried as if our hearts would break, though we were
travelling in my lord's carriage, which I thought so much of once. And
now it was long past noon on a September day, and we stopped to change
horses for the last time at a little smoky town, all full of colliers and
miners. Miss Rosamond had fallen asleep, but Mr. Henry told me to waken
her, that she might see the park and the Manor House as we drove up. I
thought it rather a pity; but I did what he bade me, for fear he should
complain of me to my lord. We had left all signs of a town, or even a village,
and were then inside the gates of a large wild park--not like the parks
here in the south, but with rocks, and the noise of running water, and
gnarled thorn-trees, and old oaks, all white and peeled with age.
The road went up about two miles, and then we saw a great
and stately house, with many trees close around it, so close that in some
places their branches dragged against the walls when the wind blew, and
some hung broken down; for no one seemed to take much charge of the place;--to
lop the wood, or to keep the moss-covered carriage-way in order. Only in
front of the house all was clear. The great oval drive was without a weed;
and neither tree nor creeper was allowed to grow over the long, many-windowed
front; at both sides of which a wing projected, which were each the ends
of other side fronts; for the house, although it was so desolate, was even
grander than I expected. Behind it rose the Fells, which seemed unenclosed
and bare enough; and on the left hand of the house, as you stood facing
it, was a little, old-fashioned flower-garden, as I found out afterwards.
A door opened out upon it from the west front; it had been scooped out
of the thick, dark wood for some old Lady Furnivall; but the branches of
the great forest-trees had grown and overshadowed it again, and there were
very few flowers that would live there at that time.
When we drove up to the great front entrance, and went
into the hall, I thought we should be lost--it was so large, and vast,
and grand. There was a chandelier all of bronze, hung down from the middle
of the ceiling; and I had never seen one before, and looked at it all in
amaze. Then, at one end of the hall, was a great fireplace, as large as
the sides of the houses in my country, with massy andirons and dogs to
hold the wood; and by it were heavy, old-fashioned sofas. At the opposite
end of the hall, to the left as you went in--on the western side--was an
organ built into the wall, and so large that it filled up the best part
of that end. Beyond it, on the same side, was a door; and opposite, on
each side of the fireplace, were also doors leading to the east front;
but those I never went through as long as I stayed in the house, so I can't
tell you what lay beyond.
The afternoon was closing in, and the hall, which had
no fire lighted in it, looked dark and gloomy; but we did not stay there
a moment. The old servant, who had opened the door for us, bowed to Mr.
Henry, and took us in through the door at the further side of the great
organ, and led us through several smaller halls and passages into the west
drawing-room, where he said that Miss Furnivall was sitting. Poor little
Miss Rosamond held very tight to me, as if she were scared and lost in
that great place; and as for myself, I was not much better. The west drawing-room
was very cheerful-looking, with a warm fire in it, and plenty of good,
comfortable furniture about. Miss Furnivall was an old lady not far from
eighty, I should think, but I do not know. She was thin and tall, and had
a face as full of fine wrinkles as if they had been drawn all over it with
a needle's point. Her eyes were very watchful, to make up, I suppose, for
her being so deaf as to be obliged to use a trumpet. Sitting with her,
working at the same great piece of tapestry, was Mrs. Stark, her maid and
companion, and almost as old as she was. She had lived with Miss Furnivall
ever since they both were young, and now she seemed more like a friend
than a servant; she looked so cold, and grey, and stony, as if she had
never loved or cared for any one; and I don't suppose she did care for
any one, except her mistress; and, owing to the great deafness of the latter,
Mrs. Stark treated her very much as if she were a child. Mr. Henry gave
some message from my lord, and then he bowed good-bye to us all--taking
no notice of my sweet little Miss Rosamond's outstretched hand--and left
us standing there, being looked at by the two old ladies through their
spectacles.
I was right glad when they rung for the old footman who
had shown us in at first, and told him to take us to our rooms. So we went
out of that great drawing-room, and into another sitting-room, and out
of that, and then up a great flight of stairs, and along a broad gallery--which
was something like a library, having books all down one side, and windows
and writing-tables all down the other--till we came to our rooms, which
I was not sorry to hear were just over the kitchens; for I began to think
I should be lost in that wilderness of a house. There was an old nursery,
that had been used for all the little lords and ladies long ago, with a
pleasant fire burning in the grate, and the kettle boiling on the hob,
and tea-things spread out on the table; and out of that room was the night-nursery,
with a little crib for Miss Rosamond close to my bed. And old James called
up Dorothy, his wife, to bid us welcome; and both he and she were so hospitable
and kind, that by-and-by Miss Rosamond and me felt quite at home; and by
the time tea was over, she was sitting on Dorothy's knee, and chattering
away as fast as her little tongue could go. I soon found out that Dorothy
was from Westmoreland, and that bound her and me together, as it were;
and I would never wish to meet with kinder people than were old James and
his wife. James had lived pretty nearly all his life in my lord's family,
and thought there was no one so grand as they. He even looked down a little
on his wife; because, till he had married her, she had never lived in any
but a farmer's household. But he was very fond of her, as well he might
be. They had one servant under them, to do all the rough work. Agnes they
called her; and she and me, and James and Dorothy, with Miss Furnivall
and Mrs. Stark, made up the family; always remembering my sweet little
Miss Rosamond! I used to wonder what they had done before she came, they
thought so much of her now. Kitchen and drawing-room, it was all the same.
The hard, sad Miss Furnivall, and the cold Mrs. Stark, looked pleased when
she came fluttering in like a bird, playing and pranking hither and thither,
with a continual murmur, and pretty prattle of gladness. I am sure, they
were sorry many a time when she flitted away into the kitchen, though they
were too proud to ask her to stay with them, and were a little surprised
at her taste; though to be sure, as Mrs. Stark said, it was not to be wondered
at, remembering what stock her father had come of. The great, old rambling
house was a famous place for little Miss Rosamond. She made expeditions
all over it, with me at her heels: all, except the east wing, which was
never opened, and whither we never thought of going. But in the western
and northern part was many a pleasant room; full of things that were curiosities
to us, though they might not have been to people who had seen more. The
windows were darkened by the sweeping boughs of the trees, and the ivy
which had overgrown them; but, in the green gloom, we could manage to see
old china jars and carved ivory boxes, and great heavy books, and, above
all, the old pictures!
Once, I remember, my darling would have Dorothy go with
us to tell us who they all were; for they were all portraits of some of
my lord's family, though Dorothy could not tell us the names of every one.
We had gone through most of the rooms, when we came to the old state drawing-room
over the hall, and there was a picture of Miss Furnivall; or, as she was
called in those days, Miss Grace, for she was the younger sister. Such
a beauty she must have been! but with such a set, proud look, and such
scorn looking out of her handsome eyes, with her eyebrows just a little
raised, as if she wondered how any one could have the impertinence to look
at her, and her lip curled at us, as we stood there gazing. She had a dress
on, the like of which I had never seen before, but it was all the fashion
when she was young: a hat of some soft white stuff like beaver, pulled
a little over her brows, and a beautiful plume of feathers sweeping round
it on one side; and her gown of blue satin was open in front to a quilted
white stomacher.
"Well, to be sure!" said I, when I had gazed my fill.
"Flesh is grass, they do say; but who would have thought that Miss Furnivall
had been such an out-and-out beauty, to see her now?"
"Yes," said Dorothy. "Folks change sadly. But if what
my master's father used to say was true, Miss Furnivall, the elder sister,
was handsomer than Miss Grace. Her picture is here somewhere; but, if I
show it you, you must never let on, even to James, that you have seen it
Can the little lady hold her tongue, think you?" asked she.
I was not so sure, for she was such a little sweet, bold,
open-spoken child, so I set her to hide herself; and then I helped Dorothy
to turn a great picture, that leaned with its face towards the wall, and
was not hung up as the others were. To be sure, it beat Miss Grace for
beauty; and I think, for scornful pride, too, though in that matter it
might be hard to choose. I could have looked at it an hour but Dorothy
seemed half frightened at having shown it to me, and hurried it back again,
and bade me run and find Miss Rosamond, for that there were some ugly places
about the house, where she should like ill for the child to go. I was a
brave, high-spirited girl, and thought little of what the old woman said,
for I liked hide-and-seek as well as any child in the parish; so off I
ran to find my little one.
As winter drew on, and the days grew shorter, I was sometimes
almost certain that I heard a noise as if some one was playing on the great
organ in the hall. I did not hear it every evening; but, certainly, I did
very often, usually when I was sitting with Miss Rosamond, after I had
put her to bed, and keeping quite still and silent in the bedroom. Then
I used to hear it booming and swelling away in the distance. The first
night, when I went down to my supper, I asked Dorothy who had been playing
music, and James said very shortly that I was a gowk to take the wind soughing
among the trees for music; but I saw Dorothy look at him very fearfully,
and Bessy, the kitchen-maid, said something beneath her breath, and went
quite white. I saw they did not like my question, so I held my peace till
I was with Dorothy alone, when I knew I could get a good deal out of her.
So, the next day, I watched my time, and I coaxed and asked her who it
was that played the organ; for I knew that it was the organ and not the
wind well enough, for all I had kept silence before James. But Dorothy
had had her lesson, I'll warrant, and never a word could I get from her.
So then I tried Bessy, though I had always held my head rather above her,
as I was evened to James and Dorothy, and she was little better than their
servant So she said I must never, never tell; and if ever told, I was never
to say she had told me; but it was a very strange noise, and she had heard
it many a time, but most of all on winter nights, and before storms; and
folks did say it was the old lord playing on the great organ in the hall,
just as he used to do when he was alive; but who the old lord was, or why
he played, and why he played on stormy winter evenings in particular, she
either could not or would not tell me. Well! I told you I had a brave heart;
and I thought it was rather pleasant to have that grand music rolling about
the house, let who would be the player; for now it rose above the great
gusts of wind, and wailed and triumphed just like a living creature, and
then it fell to a softness most complete, only it was always music, and
tunes, so it was nonsense to call it the wind. I thought at first, that
it might be Miss Furnivall who played, unknown to Bessy; but one day, when
I was in the hall by myself, I opened the organ and peeped all about it
and around it, as I had done to the organ in Crosthwaite Church once before,
and I saw it was all broken and destroyed inside, though it looked so brave
and fine; and then, though it was noon-day, my flesh began to creep a little,
and I shut it up, and run away pretty quickly to my own bright nursery;
and I did not like hearing the music for some time after that, any more
than James and Dorothy did. All this time Miss Rosamond was making herself
more and more beloved. The old ladies liked her to dine with them at their
early dinner James stood behind Miss Furnivall's chair, and I behind Miss
Rosamond's all in state; and, after dinner, she would play about in a corner
of the great drawing-room as still as any mouse, while Miss Furnivall slept,
and I had my dinner in the kitchen. But she was glad enough to come to
me in the nursery afterwards; for, as she said Miss Furnivall was so sad,
and Mrs. Stark so dull; but she and were merry enough; and, by-and-by,
I got not to care for that weird rolling music, which did one no harm,
if we did not know where it came from.
That winter was very cold. In the middle of October the
frosts began, and lasted many, many weeks. I remember one day, at dinner,
Miss Furnivall lifted up her sad, heavy eyes, and said to Mrs. Stark, "I
am afraid we shall have a terrible winter," in a strange kind of meaning
way But Mrs. Stark pretended not to hear, and talked very loud of something
else. My little lady and I did not care for the frost; not we! As long
as it was dry, we climbed up the steep brows behind the house, and went
up on the Fells which were bleak and bare enough, and there we ran races
in the fresh, sharp air; and once we came down by a new path, that took
us past the two old gnarled holly-trees, which grew about half-way down
by the east side of the house. But the days grew shorter and shorter, and
the old lord, if it was he, played away, more and more stormily and sadly,
on the great organ. One Sunday afternoon--it must have been towards the
end of November--I asked Dorothy to take charge of little missy when she
came out of the drawing-room, after Miss Furnivall had had her nap; for
it was too cold to take her with me to church, and yet I wanted to go,
And Dorothy was glad enough to promise and was so fond of the child, that
all seemed well; and Bessy and I set off very briskly, though the sky hung
heavy and black over the white earth, as if the night had never fully gone
away, and the air, though still, was very biting
"We shall have a fall of snow," said Bessy to me. And
sure enough, even while we were in church, it came down thick, in great
large flakes--so thick, it almost darkened the windows. It had stopped
snowing before we came out, but it lay soft, thick, and deep beneath our
feet, as we tramped home. Before we got to the hall, the moon rose, and
I think it was lighter then--what with the moon, and what with the white
dazzling snow--than it had been when we went to church, between two and
three o'clock. I have not told you that Miss Furnivall and Mrs. Stark never
went to church; they used to read the prayers together, in their quiet,
gloomy way; they seemed to feel the Sunday very long without their tapestry-work
to be busy at. So when I went to Dorothy in the kitchen, to fetch Miss
Rosamond and take her upstairs with me, I did not much wonder when the
old woman told me that the ladies had kept the child with them, and that
she had never come to the kitchen, as I had bidden her, when she was tired
of behaving pretty in the drawing-room. So I took off my things and went
to find her, and bring her to her supper in the nursery. But when I went
into the best drawing-room, there sat the two old ladies, very still and
quiet, dropping out a word now and then, but looking as if nothing so bright
and merry as Miss Rosamond had ever been near them. Still I thought she
might be hiding from me; it was one of her pretty ways,--and that she had
persuaded them to look as if they knew nothing about her; so I went softly
peeping under this sofa and behind that chair, making believe I was sadly
frightened at not finding her.
"What's the matter, Hester?" said Mrs. Stark sharply.
I don't know if Miss Furnivall had seen me for, as I told you, she was
very deaf, and she sat quite still,.idly staring into the fire, with her
hopeless face. "I'm only looking for my little Rosy Posy," replied I, still
thinking that the child was there, and near me, though I could not see
her.
"Miss Rosamond is not here," said Mrs. Stark. "She went
away, more than an hour ago, to find Dorothy." And she, too, turned and
went on looking into the fire.
My heart sank at this, and I began to wish I had never
left my darling. I went back to Dorothy and told her. James was gone out
for the day, but she, and me, and Bessy took lights, and went up into the
nursery first; and then we roamed over the great, large house, calling
and entreating Miss Rosamond to come out of her hiding-place, and not frighten
us to death in that way. But there was no answer; no sound.
"Oh!" said I, at last, "can she have got into the east
wing and hidden there?"
But Dorothy said it was not possible, for that she herself
had never been in there; that the doors were always locked, and my lord's
steward had the keys, she believed; at any rate, neither she nor James
had ever seen them: so I said I would go back, and see if, after all, she
was not hidden in the drawing-room, unknown to the old ladies; and if I
found her there, I said, I would whip her well for the fright she had given
me; but I never meant to do it. Well, I went back to the west drawing-room,
and I told Mrs. Stark we could not find her anywhere, and asked for leave
to look all about the furniture there, for I thought now that she might
have fallen asleep in some warm, hidden corner; but no! we looked--Miss
Furnivall got up and looked, trembling all over--and she was nowhere there;
then we set off again, every one in the house, and looked in all the places
we had searched before, but we could not find her. Miss Furnivall shivered
and shook so much, that Mrs. Stark took her back into the warm drawing-room;
but not before they had made me promise to bring her to them when she was
found. Well-a-day! I began to think she never would be found, when I bethought
me to look into the great front court, all covered with snow. I was upstairs
when I looked out; but, it was such clear moonlight, I could see, quite
plain, two little footprints, which might be traced from the hall-door
and round the corner of the east wing. I don't know how I got down, but
I tugged open the great stiff hall-door, and, throwing the skirt of my
gown over my head for a cloak, I ran out. I turned the east corner, and
there a black shadow fell on the snow but when I came again into the moonlight,
there were the little footmarks going up--up to the Fells. It was bitter
cold; so cold, that the air almost took the skin off my face as I ran;
but I ran on, crying to think how my poor little darling must be perished
and frightened. I was within sight of the holly-trees, when I saw a shepherd
coming down the hill, bearing something in his arms wrapped in his maud.
He shouted to me, and asked me if I had lost a bairn; and, when I could
not speak for crying, he bore towards me, and I saw my wee bairnie, lying
still, and white, and stiff in his arms, as if she had been dead. He told
me he had been up the Fells to gather in his sheep, before the deep cold
of night came on, and that under the holly-trees (black marks on the hill-side,
where no other bush was for miles around) he had found my little lady--my
lamb--my queen--my darling--stiff and cold in the terrible sleep which
is frost-begotten. Oh! the joy and the tears of having her in my arms once
again I for I would not let him carry her; but took her, maud and all,
into my own arms, and held her near my own warm neck and heart, and felt
the life stealing slowly back again into her little gentle limbs. But she
was still insensible when we reached the hall, and I had no breath for
speech. We went in by the kitchen-door
"Bring the warming-pan," said I; and I carried her upstairs,
and began undressing her by the nursery fire, which Bessy had kept up.
I called my little lammie all the sweet and playful names I could think
of,--even while my eyes were blinded by my tears; and at last, oh! at length
she opened her large blue eyes. Then I put her into her warm bed, and sent
Dorothy down to tell Miss Furnivall that all was well; and I made up my
mind to sit by my darling's bedside the live-long night. She fell away
into a soft sleep as soon as her pretty head had touched the pillow, and
I watched by her till morning light; when she wakened up bright and clear--or
so I thought at first--and, my dears, so I think now.
She said, that she had fancied that she should like to
go to Dorothy, for that both the old ladies were asleep, and it was very
dull in the drawing-room; and that, as she was going through the west lobby,
she saw the snow through the high window falling--falling--soft and steady;
but she wanted to see it lying pretty and white on the ground; so she made
her way into the great hall: and then, going to the window, she saw it
bright and soft upon the drive; but while she stood there, she saw a little
girl, not so old as she was, "but so pretty," said my darling; "and this
little girl beckoned to me to come out; and oh, she was so pretty and so
sweet, I could not choose but go." And then this other little girl had
taken her by the hand, and side by side the two had gone round the east
corner.
"Now you are a naughty little girl, and telling stories,"
said I. "What would your good mamma, that is in heaven, and never told
a story in her life, say to her little Rosamond, if she heard her--and
I dare say she does--telling stories!"
"Indeed, Hester," sobbed out my child, "I'm telling you
true. Indeed I am."
"Don't tell me!" said I, very stern. "I tracked you by
your foot-marks through the snow; there were only yours to be seen: and
if you had had a little girl to go hand-in-hand with you up the hill, don't
you think the footprints would have gone along with yours?"
"I can't help it, dear, dear Hester," said she, crying,
"if they did not; I never looked at her feet, but she held my hand fast
and tight in her little one, and it was very, very cold. She took me up
the Fell-path, up to the holly-trees; and there I saw a lady weeping and
crying; but when she saw me, she hushed her weeping, and smiled very proud
and grand, and took me on her knee, and began to lull me to sleep, and
that's all, Hester--but that is true ; and my dear mamma knows it is,"
said she, crying. So I thought the child was in a fever, and pretended
to believe her, as she went over her story--over and over again, and always
the same. At last Dorothy knocked at the door with Miss Rosamond's breakfast;
and she told me the old ladies were down in the eating parlour, and that
they wanted to speak to me. They had both been into the night-nursery the
evening before, but it was after Miss Rosamond was asleep; so they had
only looked at her--not asked me any questions.
"I shall catch it," thought I to myself, as I went along
the north gallery. "And yet," I thought, taking courage, "it was in their
charge I left her; and it's they that's to blame for letting her steal
away unknown and unwatched." So I went in boldly, and told my story. I
told it all to Miss Furnivall, shouting it close to her ear; but when I
came to the mention of the other little girl out in the snow, coaxing and
tempting her out, and wiling her up to the grand and beautiful lady by
the holly-tree, she threw her arms up--her old and withered arms--and cried
aloud, "Oh! Heaven forgive! Have mercy!"
Mrs. Stark took hold of her; roughly enough, I thought;
but she was past Mrs. Stark's management, and spoke to me, in a kind of
wild warning and authority.
"Hester! keep her from that child! It will lure her to
her death! That evil child! Tell her it is a wicked, naughty child." Then,
Mrs. Stark hurried me out of the room; where, indeed, I was glad enough
to go; but Miss Furnivall kept shrieking out, "Oh, have mercy! Wilt Thou
never forgive! It is many a long year ago"--
I was very uneasy in my mind after that. I durst never
leave Miss Rosamond, night or day, for fear lest she might slip off again,
after some fancy or other; and all the more, because I thought I could
make out that Miss Furnivall was crazy, from their odd ways about her;
and I was afraid lest something of the same kind (which might be in the
family, you know) hung over my darling. And the great frost never ceased
all this time; and, whenever it was a more stormy night than usual, between
the gusts, and through the wind we heard the old lord playing on the great
organ. But, old lord, or not, wherever Miss Rosamond went, there I followed;
for my love for her, pretty, helpless orphan, was stronger than my fear
for the grand and terrible sound. Besides, it rested with me to keep her
cheerful and merry, as beseemed her age. So we played together, and wandered
together, here and there, and everywhere; for I never dared to lose sight
of her again in that large and rambling house. And so it happened, that
one afternoon, not long before Christmas-day, we were playing together
on the billiard-table in the great hall (not that we knew the right way
of playing, but she liked to roll the smooth ivory balls with her pretty
hands, and I liked to do whatever she did); and, by-and-by, without our
noticing it, it grew dusk indoors, though it was still light in the open
air, and I was thinking of taking her back into the nursery, when, all
of a sudden, she cried out--
"Look, Hester! look! there is my poor little girl out
in the snow!"
I turned towards the long narrow windows, and there, sure
enough, I saw a little girl, less than my Miss Rosamond--dressed all unfit
to be out-of-doors such a bitter night--crying, and beating against the
window panes, as if she wanted to be let in. She seemed to sob and wail,
till Miss Rosamond could bear it no longer, and was flying to the door
to open it, when, all of a sudden, and close upon us, the great organ pealed
out so loud and thundering, it fairly made me tremble; and all the more,
when I remembered me that, even in the stillness of that dead-cold weather,
I had heard no sound of little battering hands upon the window-glass, although
the phantom child had seemed to put forth all its force; and, although
I had seen it wail and cry, no faintest touch of sound had fallen upon
my ears. Whether I remembered all this at the very moment, I do not know;
the great organ sound had so stunned me into terror; but this I know, I
caught up Miss Rosamond before she got the hall-door opened, and clutched
her, and carried her away, kicking and screaming, into the large, bright
kitchen, where Dorothy and Agnes were busy with their mince-pies.
"What is the matter with my sweet one?" cried Dorothy,
as I bore in Miss Rosamond, who was sobbing as if her heart would break.
"She won't let me open the door for my little girl to
come in; and she'll die if she is out on the Fells all night. Cruel, naughty
Hester," she said, slapping me; but she might have struck harder, for I
had seen a, look of ghastly terror on Dorothy's face, which made my very
blood run cold.
"Shut the back-kitchen door fast, and bolt it well," said
she to Agues. She said no more; she gave me raisins and almonds to quiet
Miss Rosamond; but she sobbed about the little girl in the snow, and would
not touch any of the good things. I was thankful when she cried herself
to sleep in bed. Then I stole down to the kitchen, and told Dorothy I had
made up my mind. I would carry my darling back to my father's house in
Applethwaite; where, if we lived humbly, we lived at peace. I said I had
been frightened enough with the old lord's organ-playing; but now that
I had seen for myself this little moaning child, all decked out as no child
in the neighbourhood could be, beating and battering to get in, yet always
without any sound or noise--with the dark wound on its right shoulder;
and that Miss Rosamond had known it again for the phantom that had nearly
lured her to death (which Dorothy knew was true); I would stand it no longer.
I saw Dorothy change colour once or twice. When I had
done, she told me she did not think I could take Miss Rosamond with me,
for that she was my lord's ward, and I had no right over her; and she asked
me would I leave the child that I was so fond of just for sounds and sights
that could do me no harm; and that they had all had to get used to in their
turns? I was all in a hot, trembling passion; and I said it was very well
for her to talk, that knew what these sights and noises betokened, and
that had, perhaps, had something to do with the spectre child while it
was alive. And I taunted her so, that she told me all she knew at last;
and then I wished I had never been told, for it only made me more afraid
than ever.
She said she had heard the tale from old neighbours that
were alive when she was first married; when folks used to come to the hall
sometimes, before it had got such a bad name on the country side: it might
not be true, or it might, what she had been told.
The old lord was Miss Furnivall's father--Miss Grace,
as Dorothy called her, for Miss Maude was the elder, and Miss Furnivall
by lights. The old lord was eaten up with pride. Such a proud man was never
seen or heard of; and his daughters were like him. No one was good enough
to wed them, although they had choice enough; for they were the great beauties
of their day, as I had seen by their portraits, where they hung in the
state drawing-room. But, as the old saying is, "Pride will have a fall;"
and these two haughty beauties fell in love with the same man, and he no
better than a foreign musician, whom their father had down from London
to play music with him at the Manor House. For, above all things, next
to his pride, the old lord loved music. He could play'on nearly every instrument
that ever was heard of; and it was a strange thing it did not soften him;
but he was a fierce, dour old man, and had broken his poor wife's heart
with his cruelty, they said. He was mad after music, and would pay any
money for it. So he got this foreigner to come; who made such beautiful
music, that they said the very birds on the trees stopped their singing
to listen. And, by degrees, this foreign gentleman got such a hold over
the old lord, that nothing would serve him but that he must come every
year; and it was he that had the great organ brought from Holland, and
built up in the hall, where it stood now. He taught the old lord to play
on it; but many and many a time, when Lord Furnivall was thinking of nothing
but his fine organ, and his finer music, the dark foreigner was walking
abroad in the woods, with one of the young ladies: now Miss Maude, and
then Miss Grace.
Miss Maude won the day and carried off the prize, such
as it was; and he and she were married, all unknown to any one; and, before
he made his next yearly visit, she had been confined of a little girl at
a farm-house on the Moors, while her father and Miss Grace thought she
was away at Doncaster Races. But though she was a wife and a mother, she
was not a bit softened, but as haughty and as passionate as ever; and perhaps
more so, for she was jealous of Miss Grace, to whom her foreign husband
paid a deal of court--by way of blinding her--as he told his wife. But
Miss Grace triumphed over Miss Maude, and Miss Maude grew fiercer and fiercer,
both with her husband and with her sister; and the former--who could easily
shake off what was disagreeable, and hide himself in foreign countries--went
away a month before his usual time that summer, and half-threatened that
he would never come back again. Meanwhile, the little girl was left at
the farm-house, and her mother used to have her horse saddled and gallop
wildly over the hills to see her once every week, at the very least; for
where she loved she loved, and where she hated she hated. And the old lord
went on playing--playing on his organ; and the servants thought the sweet
music he made had soothed down his awful temper, of which (Dorothy said)
some terrible tales could be told. He grew infirm too, and had to walk
with a crutch; and his son--that was the present Lord Furnivall's father--was
with the army in America, and the other son at sea; so Miss Maude had it
pretty much her own way, and she and Miss Grace grew colder and bitterer
to each other every day; till at last they hardly ever spoke, except when
the old lord was by. The foreign musician came again the next summer, but
it was for the last time; for they led him such a life with their jealousy
and their passions, that he grew weary, and went away, and never was heard
of again. And Miss Maude, who had always meant to have her marriage acknowledged
when her father should be dead, was left now a deserted wife, whom nobody
knew to have been married, with a child that she dared not own, although
she loved it to distraction; living with a father whom she feared, and
a sister whom she hated. When the next summer passed over, and the dark
foreigner never came, both Miss Maude and Miss Grace grew gloomy and sad;
they had a haggard look about them, though they looked handsome as ever.
But, by-and-by, Miss Maude brightened; for her father grew more and more
infirm, and more than ever carried away by his music, and she and Miss
Grace lived almost entirely apart, having separate rooms, the one on the
west side, Miss Maude on the east--those very rooms which were now shut
up. So she thought she might have her little girl with her, and no one
need ever know except those who dared not speak about it, and were bound
to believe that it was, as she said, a cottager's child she had taken a
fancy to. All this, Dorothy said, was pretty well known; but what came
afterwards no one knew, except Miss Grace and Mrs. Stark, who was even
then her maid, and much more of a friend to her than ever her sister had
been. But the servants supposed, from words that were dropped, that Miss
Maude had triumphed over Miss Grace, and told her that all the time the
dark foreigner had been mocking her with pretended love--he was her own
husband. The colour left Miss Grace's cheek and lips that very day for
ever, and she was heard to say many a time that sooner or later she would
have her revenge; and Mrs. Stark was for ever spying about the east rooms.
One fearful night, just after the New Year had come in,
when the snow was lying thick and deep; and the flakes were still falling--fast
enough to blind any one who might be out and abroad--there was a great
and violent noise heard, and the old lord's voice above all, cursing and
swearing awfully, and the cries of a little child, and the proud defiance
of a fierce woman, and the sound of a blow, and a dead stillness, and moans
and wailings, dying away on the hill-side! Then the old lord summoned all
his servants, and told them, with terrible oaths, and words more terrible,
that his daughter had disgraced herself, and that he had turned her out
of doors--her, and her child--and that if ever they gave her help, or food,
or shelter, he prayed that they might never enter heaven. And, all the
while, Miss Grace stood by him, white and still as any stone; and, when
he had ended, she heaved a great sigh, as much as to say her work was done,
and her end was accomplished. But the old lord never touched his organ
again, and died within the year; and no wonder I for, on the morrow of
that wild and fearful night, the shepherds, coming down the Fell side,
found Miss Maude sitting, all crazy and smiling, under the holly-trees,
nursing a dead child, with a terrible mark on its right shoulder. "But
that was not what killed it," said Dorothy: "it was the frost and the cold.
Every wild creature was in its hole, and every beast in its fold, while
the child and its mother were turned out to wander on the Fells! And now
you know all! and I wonder if you are less frightened now?"
I was more frightened than ever; but I said I was not.
I wished Miss Rosamond and myself well out of that dreadful house for ever;
but I would not leave her, and I dared not take her away. But oh, how I
watched her, and guarded her! We bolted the doors, and shut the window-shutters
fast, an hour or more before dark, rather than leave them open five minutes
too late. But my little lady still heard the weird child crying and mourning;
and not all we could do or say could keep her from wanting to go to her,
and let her in from the cruel wind and snow. All this time I kept away
from Miss Furnivall and Mrs. Stark, as much as ever I could; for I feared
them--I knew no good could be about them, with their grey, hard faces,
and their dreamy eyes, looking back into the ghastly years that were gone.
But, even in my fear, I had a kind of pity for Miss Furnivall, at least.
Those gone down to the pit can hardly have a more hopeless look than that
which was ever on her face. At last I even got so sorry for her--who never
said a word but what was quite forced from her--that I prayed for her;
and I taught Miss Rosamond to pray for one who had done a deadly sin; but
often, when she came to those words, she would listen, and start up from
her knees, and say, "I hear my little girl plaining and crying, very sad,--oh,
let her in, or she will die!"
One night--just after New Year's Day had come at last,
and the long winter had taken a turn, as I hoped--I heard the west drawing-room
bell ring three times, which was the signal for me. I would not leave Miss
Rosamond alone, for all she was asleep--for the old lord had been playing
wilder than ever--and I feared lest my darling should waken to hear the
spectre child; see her I knew she could not. I had fastened the windows
too well for that. So I took her out of her bed, and wrapped her up in
such outer clothes as were most handy, and carried her down to the drawing-room,
where the old ladies sat at their tapestry-work as usual. They looked up
when I came in, and Mrs. Stark asked, quite astounded, "Why did I bring
Miss Rosamond there, out of her warm bed?" I had begun to whisper, "Because
I was afraid of her being tempted out while I was away, by the wild child
in the snow," when she stopped me short (with a glance at Miss Furnivall),
and said Miss Furnivall wanted me to undo some work she had done wrong,
and which neither of them could see to unpick. So I laid my pretty dear
on the sofa, and sat down on a stool by them, and hardened my heart against
them, as I heard the wind rising and howling.
Miss Rosamond slept on sound, for all the wind blew so;
and Miss Furnivall said never a word, nor looked round when the gusts shook
the windows. All at once she started up to her full height, and put up
one hand, as if to bid us listen.
"I hear voices!" said she. "I hear terrible screams--I
hear my father's voice!"
Just at that moment my darling wakened with a sudden start:
"My little girl is crying, oh, how she is crying!" and she tried to get
up and go to her, but she got her feet entangled in the blanket, and I
caught her up; for my flesh had begun to creep at these noises, which they
heard while we could catch no sound. In a minute or two the noises came,
and gathered fast, and filled our ears; we, too, heard voices and screams,
and no longer heard the winter's wind that raged abroad. Mrs. Stark looked
at me, and I at her, but we dared not speak. Suddenly Miss Furnivall,went
towards the door, out into the ante-room, through the west lobby, and opened
the door into the great hall. Mrs. Stark followed, and I durst not be left,
though my heart almost stopped beating for fear. I wrapped my darling tight
in my arms, and went out with them. In the hall the screams were louder
than ever; they seemed to come from the east wing--nearer and nearer--close
on the other side of the locked-up doors--close behind them. Then I noticed
that the great bronze chandelier seemed all alight, though the hall was
dim, and that a fire was blazing in the vast hearth-place, though it gave
no heat; and I shuddered up with terror, and folded my darling closer to
me. But as I did so the east door shook, and she, suddenly struggling to
get free from me, cried, "Hester! I must go. My little girl is there I
hear her; she is coming! Hester, I must go!"
I held her tight with all my strength; with a set will,
I held her. If I had died, my hands would have grasped her still, I was
so resolved in my mind. Miss Furnivall stood listening, and paid no regard
to my darling, who had got down to the ground, and whom I, upon my knees
now, was holding with both my arms clasped round her neck; she still striving
and crying to get free.
All at once, the east door gave way with a thundering
crash, as if torn open in a violent passion, and there came into that broad
and mysterious light, the figure of a tall old man, with grey hair and
gleaming eyes. He drove before him, with many a relentless gesture of abhorrence,
a stern and beautiful woman, with a little child clinging to her dress.
"O Hester! Hester!" cried Miss Rosamond; "it's the lady!
the lady below the holly-trees; and my little girl is with her. Hester!
Hester! let me go to her; they are drawing me to them. I feel them--I feel
them. I must go!"
Again she was almost convulsed by her efforts to get away;
but I held her tighter and tighter, till I feared I should do her a hurt;
but rather that than let her go towards those terrible phantoms. They passed
along towards the great hall-door, where the winds howled and ravened for
their prey; but before they reached that, the lady turned; and I could
see that she defied the old man with a fierce and proud defiance; but then
she quailed--and then she threw up her arms wildly and piteously to save
her child--her little child--from a blow from his uplifted crutch.
And Miss Rosamond was torn as by a power stronger than
mine, and writhed in my arms, and sobbed (for by this time the poor darling
was growing faint).
"They want me to go with them on to the Fells--they are
drawing me to them. Oh, my little girl! I would come, but cruel, wicked
Hester holds me very tight." But when she saw the uplifted crutch, she
swooned away, and I thanked God for it. Just at this moment--when the tall
old man, his hair streaming as in the blast of a furnace, was going to
strike the little shrinking child--Miss Furnivall, the old woman by my
side, cried out, "O father! father! spare the little innocent child!" But
just then I saw--we all saw--another phantom shape itself, and grow clear
out of the blue and misty light that filled the hall; we had not seen her
till now, for it was another lady who stood by the old man, with a look
of relentless hate and triumphant scorn. That figure was very beautiful
to look upon, with a soft, white hat drawn down over the proud brows, and
a red and curling lip. It was dressed in an open robe of blue satin. I
had seen that figure before. It was the likeness of Miss Furnivall in her
youth; and the terrible phantoms moved on, regardless of old Miss Furnivall's
wild entreaty,--and the uplifted crutch fell on the right shoulder of the
little child, and the younger sister looked on, stony, and deadly serene.
But at that moment, the dim lights, and the fire that gave no heat, went
out of themselves, and Miss Furnivall lay at our feet stricken down by
the palsy--death-stricken.
Yes! she was carried to her bed that night never to rise
again. She lay with her face to the wall, muttering low, but muttering
always: "Alas! alas! what is done in youth can never be undone in age!
What is done in youth can never be undone in age!"
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