After leaving
Vienna, and long before you come to Budapesth, the Danube enters a region
of singular loneliness and desolation, where its waters spread away on
all sides regardless of a main channel, and the country becomes a swamp
for miles upon miles, covered by a vast sea of low willow-bushes. On the
big maps this deserted area is painted in a fluffy blue, growing fainter
in colour as it leaves the banks, and across it may be seen in large straggling
letters the word Sumpfe, meaning marshes.
In high
flood this great acreage of sand, shingle-beds, and willow-grown islands
is almost topped by the water, but in normal seasons the bushes bend and
rustle in the free winds, showing their silver leaves to the sunshine in
an ever-moving plain of bewildering beauty. These willows never attain
to the dignity of trees; they have no rigid trunks; they remain humble
bushes, with rounded tops and soft outline, swaying on slender stems that
answer to the least pressure of the wind; supple as grasses, and so continually
shifting that they somehow give the impression that the entire plain is
moving and alive. For the wind sends waves rising and falling over the
whole surface, waves of leaves instead of waves of water, green swells
like the sea, too, until the branches turn and lift, and then silvery white
as their under-side turns to the sun.
Happy
to slip beyond the control of the stern banks, the Danube here wanders
about at will among the intricate network of channels intersecting the
islands everywhere with broad avenues down which the waters pour with a
shouting sound; making whirlpools, eddies, and foaming rapids; tearing
at the sandy banks; carrying away masses of shore and willow-clumps; and
forming new islands innumerably which shift daily in size and shape and
possess at best an impermanent life, since the flood-time obliterates their
very existence.
Properly
speaking, this fascinating part of the river's life begins soon after leaving
Pressburg, and we, in our Canadian canoe, with gipsy tent and frying-pan
on board, reached it on the crest of a rising flood about mid-July. That
very same morning, when the sky was reddening before sunrise, we had slipped
swiftly through still-sleeping Vienna, leaving it a couple of hours later
a mere patch of smoke against the blue hills of the Wienerwald on the horizon;
we had breakfasted below Fischeramend under a grove of birch trees roaring
in the wind; and had then swept on the tearing current past Orth, Hainburg,
Petronell (the old Roman Carnuntum of Marcus Aurelius), and so under the
frowning heights of Thelsen on a spur of the Carpathians, where the March
steals in quietly from the left and the frontier is crossed between Austria
and Hungary.
Racing
along at twelve kilometres an hour soon took us well into Hungary, and
the muddy waters -- sure sign of flood -- sent us aground on many a shingle-bed,
and twisted us like a cork in many a sudden belching whirlpool before the
towers of Pressburg (Hungarian, Poszony) showed against the sky; and then
the canoe, leaping like a spirited horse, flew at top speed under the grey
walls, negotiated safely the sunken chain of the Fliegende Brucke ferry,
turned the corner sharply to the left, and plunged on yellow foam into
the wilderness of islands, sand-banks, and swamp-land beyond -- the land
of the willows.
The
change came suddenly, as when a series of bioscope pictures snaps down
on the streets of a town and shifts without warning into the scenery of
lake and forest. We entered the land of desolation on wings, and in less
than half an hour there was neither boat nor fishing-hut nor red roof,
nor any single sign of human habitation and civilisation within sight.
The sense of remoteness from the world of human kind, the utter isolation,
the fascination of this singular world of willows, winds, and waters, instantly
laid its spell upon us both, so that we allowed laughingly to one another
that we ought by rights to have held some special kind of passport to admit
us, and that we had, somewhat audaciously, come without asking leave into
a separate little kingdom of wonder and magic -- a kingdom that was reserved
for the use of others who had a right to it, with everywhere unwritten
warnings to trespassers for those who had the imagination to discover them.
Though
still early in the afternoon, the ceaseless buffetings of a most tempestuous
wind made us feel weary, and we at once began casting about for a suitable
camping-ground for the night. But the bewildering character of the islands
made landing difficult; the swirling flood carried us in shore and then
swept us out again; the willow branches tore our hands as we seized them
to stop the canoe, and we pulled many a yard of sandy bank into the water
before at length we shot with a great sideways blow from the wind into
a backwater and managed to beach the bows in a cloud of spray. Then we
lay panting and laughing after our exertions on the hot yellow sand, sheltered
from the wind, and in the full blaze of a scorching sun, a cloudless blue
sky above, and an immense army of dancing, shouting willow bushes, closing
in from all sides, shining with spray and clapping their thousand little
hands as though to applaud the success of our efforts.
"What
a river!" I said to my companion, thinking of all the way we had travelled
from the source in the Black Forest, and how he had often been obliged
to wade and push in the upper shallows at the beginning of June.
"Won't
stand much nonsense now, will it?" he said, pulling the canoe a little
farther into safety up the sand, and then composing himself for a nap.
I lay
by his side, happy and peaceful in the bath of the elements -- water, wind,
sand, and the great fire of the sun -- thinking of the long journey that
lay behind us, and of the great stretch before us to the Black Sea, and
how lucky I was to have such a delightful and charming travelling companion
as my friend, the Swede.
We had
made many similar journeys together, but the Danube, more than any other
river I knew, impressed us from the very beginning with its aliveness.
From its tiny bubbling entry into the world among the pinewood gardens
of Donaueschingen, until this moment when it began to play the great river-game
of losing itself among the deserted swamps, unobserved, unrestrained, it
had seemed to us like following the grown of some living creature. Sleepy
at first, but later developing violent desires as it became conscious of
its deep soul, it rolled, like some huge fluid being, through all the countries
we had passed, holding our little craft on its mighty shoulders, playing
roughly with us sometimes, yet always friendly and well-meaning, till at
length we had come inevitably to regard it as a Great Personage.
How,
indeed, could it be otherwise, since it told us so much of its secret life?
At night we heard it singing to the moon as we lay in our tent, uttering
that odd sibilant note peculiar to itself and said to be caused by the
rapid tearing of the pebbles along its bed, so great is its hurrying speed.
We knew, too, the voice of its gurgling whirlpools, suddenly bubbling up
on a surface previously quite calm; the roar of its shallows and swift
rapids; its constant steady thundering below all mere surface sounds; and
that ceaseless tearing of its icy waters at the banks. How it stood up
and shouted when the rains fell flat upon its face! And how its laughter
roared out when the wind blew upstream and tried to stop its growing speed!
We knew all its sounds and voices, its tumblings and foamings, its unnecessary
splashing against the bridges; that self-conscious chatter when there were
hills to look on; the affected dignity of its speech when it passed through
the little towns, far too important to laugh; and all these faint, sweet
whisperings when the sun caught it fairly in some slow curve and poured
down upon it till the steam rose.
It was
full of tricks, too, in its early life before the great world knew it.
There were places in the upper reaches among the Swabian forests, when
yet the first whispers of its destiny had not reached it, where it elected
to disappear through holes in the ground, to appear again on the other
side of the porous limestone hills and start a new river with another name;
leaving, too, so little water in its own bed that we had to climb out and
wade and push the canoe through miles of shallows.
And
a chief pleasure, in those early days of its irresponsible youth, was to
lie low, like Brer Fox, just before the little turbulent tributaries came
to join it from the Alps, and to refuse to acknowledge them when in, but
to run for miles side by side, the dividing line well marked, the very
levels different, the Danube utterly declining to recognize the newcomer.
Below Passau, however, it gave up this particular trick, for there the
Inn comes in with a thundering power impossible to ignore, and so pushes
and incommodes the parent river that there is hardly room for them in the
long twisting gorge that follows, and the Danube is shoved this way and
that against the cliffs, and forced to hurry itself with great waves and
mush dashing to and fro in order to get through in time. And during the
fight our canoe slipped down from its shoulder to its breast, and had the
time of its life among the struggling waves. But the Inn taught the old
river a lesson, and after Passau it no longer pretended to ignore new arrivals.
This
was many days back, of course, and since then we had come to know other
aspects of the great creature, and across the Bavarian wheat plain of Straubing
she wandered so slowly under the blazing June sun that we could well imagine
only the surface inches were water, while below there moved, concealed
as by a silken mantle, a whole army of Undines, passing silently and unseen
down to the sea, and very leisurely too, lest they be discovered.
Much,
too, we forgave her because of her friendliness to the birds and animals
that haunted the shores. Cormorants lined the banks in lonely places in
rows like short black palings; grey crows crowded the shingle-beds; storks
stood fishing in the vistas of shallower water that opened up between the
islands, and hawks, swans, and marsh birds of all sorts filled the air
with glinting wings and singing, petulant cries. It was impossible to feel
annoyed with the river's vagaries after seeing a deer leap with a splash
into the water at sunrise and swim past the bows of the canoe; and often
we saw fawns peering at us from the underbrush, or looked straight into
the brown eyes of a stag as we charged full tilt round a corner and entered
another reach of the river. Foxes, too, everywhere haunted the banks, tripping
daintily among the driftwood and disappearing so suddenly that it was
impossible to see how they managed
it.
But
now, after leaving Pressburg, everything changed a little, and the Danube
became more serious. It ceased trifling. It was half-way to the Black Sea,
within seeming distance almost of other, stranger countries where no tricks
would be permitted or understood. It became suddenly grown-up, and claimed
our respect and even our awe. It broke out into three arms, for one thing,
that only met again a hundred kilometres farther down, and for a canoe
there were no indications which one was intended to be followed.
"If
you take a side channel," said the Hungarian officer we met in the Pressburg
shop while buying provisions, "you may find yourselves, when the flood
subsides, forty miles from anywhere, high and dry, and you may easily starve.
There are no people, no farms, no fishermen. I warn you not to continue.
The river, too, is still rising, and this wind will increase."
The
rising river did not alarm us in the least, but the matter of being left
high and dry by a sudden subsidence of the waters might be serious, and
we had consequently laid in an extra stock of provisions. For the rest,
the officer's prophecy held true, and the wind, blowing down a perfectly
clear sky, increased steadily till it reached the dignity of a westerly
gale.
It was
earlier than usual when we camped, for the sun was a good hour or two from
the horizon, and leaving my friend still asleep on the hot sand, I wandered
about in desultory examination of our hotel. The island, I found, was less
than an acre in extent, a mere sandy bank standing some two or three feet
above the level of the river. The far end, pointing into the sunset, was
covered with flying spray which the tremendous wind drove off the crests
of the broken waves. It was triangular in shape, with the apex up stream.
I stood
there for several minutes, watching the impetuous crimson flood bearing
down with a shouting roar, dashing in waves against the bank as though
to sweep it bodily away, and then swirling by in two foaming streams on
either side. The ground seemed to shake with the shock and rush, while
the furious movement of the willow bushes as the wind poured over them
increased the curious illusion that the island itself actually moved. Above,
for a mile or two, I could see the great river descending upon me; it was
like looking up the slope of a sliding hill, white with foam, and leaping
up everywhere to show itself to the sun.
The
rest of the island was too thickly grown with willows to make walking pleasant,
but I made the tour, nevertheless. From the lower end the light, of course,
changed, and the river looked dark and angry. Only the backs of the flying
waves were visible, streaked with foam, and pushed forcibly by the great
puffs of wind that fell upon them from behind. For a short mile it
was visible, pouring in and out among the islands, and then disappearing
with a huge sweep into the willows, which closed about it like a herd of
monstrous antediluvian creatures crowding down to drink. They made me think
of gigantic sponge-like growths that sucked the river up into themselves.
They caused it to vanish from sight. They herded there together in
such overpowering numbers.
Altogether
it was an impressive scene, with its utter loneliness, its bizarre suggestion;
and as I gazed, long and curiously, a singular emotion began to stir somewhere
in the depths of me. Midway in my delight of the wild beauty, there crept,
unbidden and unexplained, a curious feeling of disquietude, almost of alarm.
A rising
river, perhaps, always suggests something of the ominous; many of the little
islands I saw before me would probably have been swept away by the morning;
this resistless, thundering flood of water touched the sense of awe. Yet
I was aware that my uneasiness lay deeper far than the emotions of awe
and wonder. It was not that I felt. Nor had it directly to do with
the power of the driving wind -- this shouting hurricane that might almost
carry up a few acres of willows into the air and scatter them like so much
chaff over the landscape. The wind was simply enjoying itself, for nothing
rose out of the flat landscape to stop it, and I was conscious of sharing
its great game with a kind of pleasurable excitement. Yet this novel emotion
had nothing to do with the wind. Indeed, so vague was the sense of distress
I experienced, that it was impossible to trace it to its source and deal
with it accordingly, though I was aware somehow that it had to do with
my realisation of our utter insignificance before this unrestrained power
of the elements about me. The huge-grown river had something to do with
it too -- a vague, unpleasant idea that we had somehow trifled with these
great elemental forces in whose power we lay helpless every hour of the
day and night. For here, indeed, they were gigantically at play together,
and the sight appealed to the imagination.
But
my emotion, so far as I could understand it, seemed to attach itself more
particularly to the willow bushes, to these acres and acres of willows,
crowding, so thickly growing there, swarming everywhere the eye could reach,
pressing upon the river as though to suffocate it, standing in dense array
mile after mile beneath the sky, watching, waiting, listening. And, apart
quite from the elements, the willows connected themselves subtly with my
malaise, attacking the mind insidiously somehow by reason of their vast
numbers, and contriving in some way or other to represent to the imagination
a new and mighty power, a power, moreover, not altogether friendly to us.
Great
revelations of nature, of course, never fail to impress in one way or another,
and I was no stranger to moods of the kind. Mountains overawe and oceans
terrify, while the mystery of great forests exercises a spell peculiarly
its own. But all these, at one point or another, somewhere link on intimately
with human life and human experience. They stir comprehensible, even if
alarming, emotions. They tend on the whole to exalt.
With
this multitude of willows, however, it was something far different, I felt.
Some essence emanated from them that besieged the heart. A sense of awe
awakened, true, but of awe touched somewhere by a vague terror. Their serried
ranks, growing everywhere darker about me as the shadows deepened, moving
furiously yet softly in the wind, woke in me the curious and unwelcome
suggestion that we had trespassed here upon the borders of an alien world,
a world where we were intruders, a world where we were not wanted or invited
to remain -- where we ran grave risks perhaps!
The
feeling, however, though it refused to yield its meaning entirely to analysis,
did not at the time trouble me by passing into menace. Yet it never left
me quite, even during the very practical business of putting up the tent
in a hurricane of wind and building a fire for the stew-pot. It remained,
just enough to bother and perplex, and to rob a most delightful camping-ground
of a good portion of its charm. To my companion, however, I said nothing,
for he was a man I considered devoid of imagination. In the first place,
I could never have explained to him what I meant, and in the second, he
would have laughed stupidly at me if I had.
There
was a slight depression in the centre of the island, and here we pitched
the tent. The surrounding willows broke the wind a bit.
"A poor
camp," observed the imperturbable Swede when at last the tent stood upright,
"no stones and precious little firewood. I'm for moving on early
to-morrow -- eh? This sand won't hold anything."
But
the experience of a collapsing tent at midnight had taught us many devices,
and we made the cosy gipsy house as safe as possible, and then set about
collecting a store of wood to last till bed-time. Willow bushes drop no
branches, and driftwood was our only source of supply. We hunted the shores
pretty thoroughly. Everywhere the banks were crumbling as the rising flood
tore at them and carried away great portions with a splash and a gurgle.
"The
island's much smaller than when we landed," said the accurate Swede. "It
won't last long at this rate. We'd better drag the canoe close to the tent,
and be ready to start at a moment's notice. I shall sleep in my clothes."
He was
a little distance off, climbing along the bank, and I heard his rather
jolly laugh as he spoke.
"By
Jove!" I heard him call, a moment later, and turned to see what had caused
his exclamation. But for the moment he was hidden by the willows, and I
could not find him.
"What
in the world's this?" I heard him cry again, and this time his voice had
become serious.
I ran
up quickly and joined him on the bank. He was looking over the river, pointing
at something in the water.
"Good
heavens, it's a man's body!" he cried excitedly. "Look!"
A black
thing, turning over and over in the foaming waves, swept rapidly past.
It kept disappearing and coming up to the surface again. It was about twenty
feet from the shore, and just as it was opposite to where we stood it lurched
round and looked straight at us. We saw its eyes reflecting the sunset,
and gleaming an odd yellow as the body turned over. Then it gave
a swift, gulping plunge, and dived out of sight in a flash.
"An
otter, by gad!" we exclaimed in the same breath, laughing.
It was
an otter, alive, and out on the hunt; yet it had looked exactly like the
body of a drowned man turning helplessly in the current. Far below it came
to the surface once again, and we saw its black skin, wet and shining in
the sunlight.
Then,
too, just as we turned back, our arms full of driftwood, another thing
happened to recall us to the river bank. This time it really was a man,
and what was more, a man in a boat. Now a small boat on the Danube was
an unusual sight at any time, but here in this deserted region, and at
flood time, it was so unexpected as to constitute a real event. We stood
and stared.
Whether
it was due to the slanting sunlight, or the refraction from the wonderfully
illumined water, I cannot say, but, whatever the cause, I found it difficult
to focus my sight properly upon the flying apparition. It seemed, however,
to be a man standing upright in a sort of flat-bottomed boat, steering
with a long oar, and being carried down the opposite shore at a tremendous
pace. He apparently was looking across in our direction, but the distance
was too great and the light too uncertain for us to make out very plainly
what he was about. It seemed to me that he was gesticulating and making
signs at us. His voice came across the water to us shouting something furiously,
but the wind drowned it so that no single word was audible. There was something
curious about the whole appearance -- man, boat, signs, voice -- that made
an impression on me out of all proportion to its cause.
"He's
crossing himself!" I cried. "Look, he's making the sign of the Cross!"
"I believe
you're right," the Swede said, shading his eyes with his hand and watching
the man out of sight. He seemed to be gone in a moment, melting away down
there into the sea of willows where the sun caught them in the bend of
the river and turned them into a great crimson wall of beauty. Mist, too,
had begun to ruse, so that the air was hazy.
"But
what in the world is he doing at nightfall on this flooded river?" I said,
half to myself. "Where is he going at such a time, and what did he mean
by his signs and shouting? D'you think he wished to warn us about
something?"
"He
saw our smoke, and thought we were spirits probably," laughed my companion.
"These Hungarians believe in all sorts of rubbish; you remember the shopwoman
at Pressburg warning us that no one ever landed here because it belonged
to some sort of beings outside man's world! I suppose they believe in fairies
and elementals, possibly demons, too. That peasant in the boat saw people
on the islands for the first time in his life," he added, after a slight
pause, "and it scared him, that's all."
The
Swede's tone of voice was not convincing, and his manner lacked something
that was usually there. I noted the change instantly while he talked, though
without being able to label it precisely.
"If
they had enough imagination," I laughed loudly -- I remember trying to
make as much noise as I could -- "they might well people a place like this
with the old gods of antiquity. The Romans must have haunted all this region
more or less with their shrines and sacred groves and elemental deities."
The
subject dropped and we returned to our stew-pot, for my friend was not
given to imaginative conversation as a rule. Moreover, just then I remember
feeling distinctly glad that he was not imaginative; his stolid, practical
nature suddenly seemed to me welcome and comforting. It was an admirable
temperament, I felt; he could steer down rapids like a red Indian, shoot
dangerous bridges and whirlpools better than any white man I ever saw in
a canoe. He was a grand fellow for an adventurous trip, a tower of strength
when
untoward things happened. I
looked at his strong face and light curly hair as he staggered along under
his pile of driftwood (twice the size of mine!), and I experienced a feeling
of relief. Yes, I was distinctly glad just then that the Swede was -- what
he was, and that he never made remarks that suggested more than they said.
"The
river's still rising, though," he added, as if following out some thoughts
of his own, and dropping his load with a gasp. "This island will be under
water in two days if it goes on."
"I wish
the wind would go down," I said. "I don't care a fig for the river."
The
flood, indeed, had no terrors for us; we could get off at ten minute's
notice, and the more water the better we liked it. It meant an increasing
current and the obliteration of the treacherous shingle-beds that so often
threatened to tear the bottom out of our canoe.
Contrary
to our expectations, the wind did not go down with the sun. It seemed to
increase with the darkness, howling overhead and shaking the willows round
us like straws. Curious sounds accompanied it sometimes, like the
explosion of heavy guns, and it fell upon the water and the island in great
flat blows of immense power. It made me think of the sounds a planet must
make, could we only hear it, driving along through space.
But
the sky kept wholly clear of clouds, and soon after supper the full moon
rose up in the east and covered the river and the plain of shouting willows
with a light like the day.
We lay
on the sandy patch beside the fire, smoking, listening to the noises of
the night round us, and talking happily of the journey we had already made,
and of our plans ahead. The map lay spread in the door of the tent,
but the high wind made it hard to study, and presently we lowered the curtain
and extinguished the lantern. The firelight was enough to smoke and see
each other's faces by, and the sparks flew about overhead like fireworks.
A few yards beyond, the river gurgled and hissed, and from time to time
a heavy splash announced the falling away of further portions of the bank.
Our
talk, I noticed, had to do with the far-away scenes and incidents of our
first camps in the Black Forest, or of other subjects altogether remote
from the present setting, for neither of us spoke of the actual moment
more than was necessary -- almost as though we had agreed tacitly to avoid
discussion of the camp and its incidents. Neither the otter nor the boatman,
for instance, received the honour of a single mention, though ordinarily
these would have furnished discussion for the greater part of the evening.
They were, of course, distinct events in such a place.
The
scarcity of wood made it a business to keep the fire going, for the wind,
that drove the smoke in our faces wherever we sat, helped at the same time
to make a forced draught. We took it in turn to make some foraging expeditions
into the darkness, and the quantity the Swede brought back always made
me feel that he took an absurdly long time finding it; for the fact was
I did not care much about being left alone, and yet it always seemed to
be my turn to grub about among the bushes or scramble along the slippery
banks in the moonlight. The long day's battle with wind and water -- such
wind and such water! -- had tired us both, and an early bed was the obvious
programme. Yet neither of us made the move for the tent. We lay there,
tending the fire, talking in desultory fashion, peering about us into the
dense willow bushes, and listening to the thunder of wind and river.
The loneliness of the place had entered our very bones, and silence seemed
natural, for after a bit the sound of our voices became a trifle unreal
and forced; whispering would have been the fitting mode of communication,
I felt, and the human voice, always rather absurd amid the roar of the
elements, now carried with it something almost illegitimate. It was like
talking out loud in church, or in some place where it was not lawful, perhaps
not quite safe, to be overheard.
The
eeriness of this lonely island, set among a million willows, swept by a
hurricane, and surrounded by hurrying deep waters, touched us both, I fancy.
Untrodden by man, almost unknown to man, it lay there beneath he moon,
remote from human influence, on the frontier of another world, an alien
world, a world tenanted by willows only and the souls of willows. And we,
in our rashness, had dared to invade it, even to make use of it! Something
more than the power of its mystery stirred in me as I lay on the sand,
feet to fire, and peered up through the leaves at the stars. For the last
time I rose to get firewood.
"When
this has burnt up," I said firmly, "I shall turn in," and my companion
watched me lazily as I moved off into the surrounding shadows.
For
an unimaginative man I thought he seemed unusually receptive that night,
unusually open to suggestion of things other than sensory. He too was touched
by the beauty and loneliness of the place. I was not altogether pleased,
I remember, to recognise this slight change in him, and instead of immediately
collecting sticks, I made my way to the far point of the island where the
moonlight on plain and river could be seen to better advantage. The desire
to be alone had come suddenly upon me; my former dread returned in force;
there was a vague feeling in me I wished to face and probe to the bottom.
When
I reached the point of sand jutting out among the waves, the spell of the
place descended upon me with a positive shock. No mere "scenery" could
have produced such an effect. There was something more here, something
to alarm.
I gazed
across the waste of wild waters; I watched the whispering willows; I heard
the ceaseless beating of the tireless wind; and, one and all, each in its
own way, stirred in me this sensation of a strange distress. But the willows
especially; for ever they went on chattering and talking among themselves,
laughing a little, shrilly crying out, sometimes sighing -- but what it
was they made so much to-do about belonged to the secret life of the great
plain they inhabited. And it was utterly alien to the world I knew, or
to that of the wild yet kindly elements. They made me think of a host of
beings from another plane of life, another evolution altogether, perhaps,
all discussing a mystery known only to themselves. I watched them moving
busily together, oddly shaking their big bushy heads, twirling their myriad
leaves even when there was no wind. They moved of their own will as though
alive, and they touched, by some incalculable method, my own keen sense
of the horrible.
There
they stood in the moonlight, like a vast army surrounding our camp, shaking
their innumerable silver spears defiantly, formed all ready for an attack.
The
psychology of places, for some imaginations at least, is very vivid; for
the wanderer, especially, camps have their "note" either of welcome or
rejection. At first it may not always be apparent, because the busy preparations
of tent and cooking prevent, but with the first pause -- after supper usually
-- it comes and announces itself. And the note of this willow-camp now
became unmistakably plain to me; we were interlopers, trespassers;
we were not welcomed. The sense of unfamiliarity grew upon me as I stood
there watching. We touched the frontier of a region where our presence
was resented. For a night's lodging we might perhaps be tolerated; but
for a prolonged and inquisitive stay -- No! by all the gods of the trees
and wilderness, no! We were the first human influences upon this island,
and we were not wanted. The willows were against us.
Strange
thoughts like these, bizarre fancies, borne I know not whence, found lodgment
in my mind as I stood listening. What, I thought, if, after all, these
crouching willows proved to be alive; if suddenly they should rise up,
like a swarm of living creatures, marshalled by the gods whose territory
we had invaded, sweep towards us off the vast swamps, booming overhead
in the night -- and then settle down! As I looked it was so easy to imagine
they actually moved, crept nearer, retreated a little, huddled together
in masses, hostile, waiting for the great wind that should finally start
them a-running. I could have sworn their aspect changed a little, and their
ranks deepened and pressed more closely together.
The
melancholy shrill cry of a night-bird sounded overhead, and suddenly I
nearly lost my balance as the piece of bank I stood upon fell with a great
splash into the river, undermined by the flood. I stepped back just in
time, and went on hunting for firewood again, half laughing at the odd
fancies that crowded so thickly into my mind and cast their spell upon
me. I recalled the Swede's remark about moving on next day, and I was just
thinking that I fully agreed with him, when I turned with a start and saw
the subject of my thoughts standing immediately in front of me. He was
quite close. The roar of the elements had covered his approach.
"You've
been gone so long," he shouted above the wind, "I thought something must
have happened to you."
But
there was that in his tone, and a certain look in his face as well, that
conveyed to me more than his usual words, and in a flash I understood the
real reason for his coming. It was because the spell of the place had entered
his soul too, and he did not like being alone.
"River
still rising," he cried, pointing to the flood in the moonlight, "and the
wind's simply awful."
He always
said the same things, but it was the cry for companionship that gave the
real importance to his words.
"Lucky,"
I cried back, "our tent's in the hollow. I think it'll hold all right."
I added something about the difficulty of finding wood, in order to explain
my absence, but the wind caught my words and flung them across the river,
so that he did not hear, but just looked at me through the branches, nodding
his head.
"Lucky
if we get away without disaster!" he shouted, or words to that effect;
and I remember feeling half angry with him for putting the thought into
words, for it was exactly what I felt myself. There was disaster impending
somewhere, and the sense of presentiment lay unpleasantly upon me.
We went
back to the fire and made a final blaze, poking it up with our feet. We
took a last look round. But for the wind the heat would have been unpleasant.
I put this thought into words, and I remember my friend's reply struck
me oddly: that he would rather have the heat, the ordinary July weather,
than this "diabolical wind".
Everything
was snug for the night; the canoe lying turned over beside the tent, with
both yellow paddles beneath her; the provision sack hanging from a willow-stem,
and the washed-up dishes removed to a safe distance from the fire, all
ready for the morning meal.
We smothered
the embers of the fire with sand, and then turned in. The flap of the tent
door was up, and I saw the branches and the stars and the white moonlight.
The shaking willows and the heavy buffetings of the wind against our taut
little house were the last things I remembered as sleep came down and covered
all with its soft and delicious forgetfulness.
Suddenly
I found myself lying awake, peering from my sandy mattress through the
door of the tent. I looked at my watch pinned against the canvas, and saw
by the bright moonlight that it was past twelve o'clock -- the threshold
of a new day -- and I had therefore slept a couple of hours. The Swede
was asleep still beside me; the wind howled as before; something plucked
at my heart and made me feel afraid. There was a sense of disturbance in
my immediate neighbourhood.
I sat
up quickly and looked out. The trees were swaying violently to and fro
as the gusts smote them, but our little bit of green canvas lay snugly
safe in the hollow, for the wind passed over it without meeting enough
resistance to make it vicious. The feeling of disquietude did not pass,
however, and I crawled quietly out of the tent to see if our belongings
were safe. I moved carefully so as not to waken my companion. A curious
excitement was on me.
I was
half-way out, kneeling on all fours, when my eye first took in that the
tops of the bushes opposite, with their moving tracery of leaves, made
shapes against the sky. I sat back on my haunches and stared. It was incredible,
surely, but there, opposite and slightly above me, were shapes of some
indeterminate sort among the willows, and as the branches swayed in the
wind they seemed to group themselves about these shapes, forming a series
of monstrous outlines that shifted rapidly beneath the moon. Close, about
fifty feet in front of me, I saw these things.
My first
instinct was to waken my companion, that he too might see them, but something
made me hesitate -- the sudden realisation, probably, that I should not
welcome corroboration; and meanwhile I crouched there staring in amazement
with smarting eyes. I was wide awake. I remember saying to myself that
I was not dreaming.
They
first became properly visible, these huge figures, just within the tops
of the bushes -- immense, bronze-coloured, moving, and wholly independent
of the swaying of the branches. I saw them plainly and noted, now I came
to examine them more calmly, that they were very much larger than human,
and indeed that something in their appearance proclaimed them to be not
human at all. Certainly they were not merely the moving tracery of the
branches against the moonlight. They shifted independently. They rose upwards
in a continuous stream from earth to sky, vanishing utterly as soon as
they reached the dark of the sky. They were interlaced one with another,
making a great column, and I saw their limbs and huge bodies melting in
and out of each other, forming this serpentine line that bent and swayed
and twisted spirally with the contortions of the wind-tossed trees.
They were nude, fluid shapes, passing up the bushes, within the leaves
almost -- rising up in a living column into the heavens. Their faces I
never could see. Unceasingly they poured upwards, swaying in great bending
curves, with a hue of dull bronze upon their skins.
I stared,
trying to force every atom of vision from my eyes. For a long time I thought
they must every moment disappear and resolve themselves into the movements
of the branches and prove to be an optical illusion. I searched everywhere
for a proof of reality, when all the while I understood quite well that
the standard of reality had changed. For the longer I looked the more certain
I became that these figures were real and living, though perhaps not according
to the standards that the camera and the biologist would insist upon.
Far
from feeling fear, I was possessed with a sense of awe and wonder such
as I have never known. I seemed to be gazing at the personified elemental
forces of this haunted and primeval region. Our intrusion had stirred the
powers of the place into activity. It was we who were the cause of the
disturbance, and my brain filled to bursting with stories and legends of
the spirits and deities of places that have been acknowledged and worshipped
by men in all ages of the world's history. But, before I could arrive at
any possible explanation, something impelled me to go farther out, and
I crept forward on the sand and stood upright. I felt the ground still
warm under my bare feet; the wind tore at my hair and face; and the sound
of the river burst upon my ears with a sudden roar. These things, I knew,
were real, and proved that my senses were acting normally. Yet the figures
still rose from earth to heaven, silent, majestically, in a great spiral
of grace and strength that overwhelmed me at length with a genuine deep
emotion of worship. I felt that I must fall down and worship -- absolutely
worship.
Perhaps
in another minute I might have done so, when a gust of wind swept against
me with such force that it blew me sideways, and I nearly stumbled and
fell. It seemed to shake the dream violently out of me. At least it gave
me another point of view somehow. The figures still remained, still ascended
into heaven from the heart of the night, but my reason at last began to
assert itself. It must be a subjective experience, I argued -- none the
less real for that, but still subjective. The moonlight and the branches
combined to work out these pictures upon the mirror of my imagination,
and for some reason I projected them outwards and made them appear objective.
I knew this must be the case, of course. I took courage, and began
to move forward across the open patches of sand. By Jove, though, was it
all hallucination? Was it merely subjective? Did not my reason argue in
the old futile way from the little standard of the known?
I only
know that great column of figures ascended darkly into the sky for what
seemed a very long period of time, and with a very complete measure of
reality as most men are accustomed to gauge reality. Then suddenly they
were gone!
And,
once they were gone and the immediate wonder of their great presence had
passed, fear came down upon me with a cold rush. The esoteric meaning of
this lonely and haunted region suddenly flamed up within me, and I began
to tremble dreadfully. I took a quick look round -- a look of horror that
came near to panic -- calculating vainly ways of escape; and then, realising
how helpless I was to achieve anything really effective, I crept back silently
into the tent and lay down again upon my sandy mattress, first lowering
the door-curtain to shut out the sight of the willows in the moonlight,
and then burying my head as deeply as possible beneath the blankets to
deaden the sound of the terrifying wind.
As though
further to convince me that I had not been dreaming, I remember that it
was a long time before I fell again into a troubled and restless sleep;
and even then only the upper crust of me slept, and underneath there was
something that never quite lost consciousness, but lay alert and on the
watch.
But
this second time I jumped up with a genuine start of terror. It was neither
the wind nor the river that woke me, but the slow approach of something
that caused the sleeping portion of me to grow smaller and smaller till
at last it vanished altogether, and I found myself sitting bolt upright
-- listening.
Outside
there was a sound of multitudinous little patterings. They had been coming,
I was aware, for a long time, and in my sleep they had first become audible.
I sat there nervously wide awake as though I had not slept at all. It seemed
to me that my breathing came with difficulty, and that there was a great
weight upon the surface of my body. In spite of the hot night, I felt clammy
with cold and shivered. Something surely was pressing steadily against
the sides of the tent and weighing down upon it from above. Was it the
body of the wind? Was this the pattering rain, the dripping of the leaves?
The spray blown from the river by the wind and gathering in big drops?
I thought quickly of a dozen things.
Then
suddenly the explanation leaped into my mind: a bough from the poplar,
the only large tree on the island, had fallen with the wind. Still half
caught by the other branches, it would fall with the next gust and crush
us, and meanwhile its leaves brushed and tapped upon the tight canvas surface
of the tent. I raised a loose flap and rushed out, calling to the Swede
to follow.
But
when I got out and stood upright I saw that the tent was free. There was
no hanging bough; there was no rain or spray; nothing approached.
A cold,
grey light filtered down through the bushes and lay on the faintly gleaming
sand. Stars still crowded the sky directly overhead, and the wind howled
magnificently, but the fire no longer gave out any glow, and I saw the
east reddening in streaks through the trees. Several hours must have passed
since I stood there before watching the ascending figures, and the memory
of it now came back to me horribly, like an evil dream. Oh, how tired it
made me feel, that ceaseless raging wind! Yet, though the deep lassitude
of a sleepless night was on me, my nerves were tingling with the activity
of an equally tireless apprehension, and all idea of repose was out of
the question. The river I saw had risen further. Its thunder filled the
air, and a fine spray made itself felt through my thin sleeping shirt.
Yet
nowhere did I discover the slightest evidence of anything to cause alarm.
This deep, prolonged disturbance in my heart remained wholly unaccounted
for.
My companion
had not stirred when I called him, and there was no need to waken him now.
I looked about me carefully, noting everything; the turned-over canoe;
the yellow paddles -- two of them, I'm certain; the provision sack and
the extra lantern hanging together from the tree; and, crowding everywhere
about me, enveloping all, the willows, those endless, shaking willows.
A bird uttered its morning cry, and a string of duck passed with whirring
flight overhead in the twilight. The sand whirled, dry and stinging, about
my bare feet in the wind.
I walked
round the tent and then went out a little way into the bush, so that I
could see across the river to the farther landscape, and the same profound
yet indefinable emotion of distress seized upon me again as I saw the interminable
sea of bushes stretching to the horizon, looking ghostly and unreal in
the wan light of dawn. I walked softly here and there, still puzzling over
that odd sound of infinite pattering, and of that pressure upon the tent
that had wakened me. It must have been the wind, I reflected -- the wind
bearing upon the loose, hot sand, driving the dry particles smartly against
the taut canvas -- the wind dropping heavily upon our fragile roof.
Yet
all the time my nervousness and malaise increased appreciably.
I crossed
over to the farther shore and noted how the coast-line had altered in the
night, and what masses of sand the river had torn away. I dipped my hands
and feet into the cool current, and bathed my forehead. Already there was
a glow of sunrise in the sky and the exquisite freshness of coming day.
On my way back I passed purposely beneath the very bushes where I had seen
the column of figures rising into the air, and midway among the clumps
I suddenly found myself overtaken by a sense of vast terror. From the shadows
a large figure went swiftly by. Someone passed me, as sure as ever man
did. . . .
It was
a great staggering blow from the wind that helped me forward again, and
once out in the more open space, the sense of terror diminished strangely.
The winds were about and walking, I remember saying to myself, for the
winds often move like great presences under the trees. And altogether the
fear that hovered about me was such an unknown and immense kind of fear,
so unlike anything I had ever felt before, that it woke a sense of awe
and wonder in me that did much to counteract its worst effects; and when
I reached a high point in the middle of the island from which I could see
the wide stretch of river, crimson in the sunrise, the whole magical beauty
of it all was so overpowering that a sort of wild yearning woke in me and
almost brought a cry up into the throat.
But
this cry found no expression, for as my eyes wandered from the plain beyond
to the island round me and noted our little tent half hidden among the
willows, a dreadful discovery leaped out at me, compared to which my terror
of the walking winds seemed as nothing at all.
For
a change, I thought, had somehow come about in the arrangement of the landscape.
It was not that my point of vantage gave me a different view, but that
an alteration had apparently been effected in the relation of the tent
to the willows, and of the willows to the tent. Surely the bushes now crowded
much closer -- unnecessarily, unpleasantly close. They had moved
nearer.
Creeping
with silent feet over the shifting sands, drawing imperceptibly nearer
by soft, unhurried movements, the willows had come closer during the night.
But had the wind moved them, or had they moved of themselves? I recalled
the sound of infinite small patterings and the pressure upon the tent and
upon my own heart that caused me to wake in terror. I swayed for a moment
in the wind like a tree, finding it hard to keep my upright position on
the sandy hillock. There was a suggestion here of personal agency, of deliberate
intention, of aggressive hostility, and it terrified me into a sort of
rigidity.
Then
the reaction followed quickly. The idea was so bizarre, so absurd, that
I felt inclined to laugh. But the laughter came no more readily than the
cry, for the knowledge that my mind was so receptive to such dangerous
imaginings brought the additional terror that it was through our minds
and not through our physical bodies that the attack would come, and was
coming.
The
wind buffeted me about, and, very quickly it seemed, the sun came up over
the horizon, for it was after four o'clock, and I must have stood on that
little pinnacle of sand longer than I knew, afraid to come down to close
quarters with the willows. I returned quietly, creepily, to the tent, first
taking another exhaustive look round and -- yes, I confess it -- making
a few measurements. I paced out on the warm sand the distances between
the willows and the tent, making a note of the shortest distance particularly.
I crawled
stealthily into my blankets. My companion, to all appearances, still slept
soundly, and I was glad that this was so. Provided my experiences were
not corroborated, I could find strength somehow to deny them, perhaps.
With the daylight I could persuade myself that it was all a subjective
hallucination, a fantasy of the night, a projection of the excited imagination.
Nothing
further came in to disturb me, and I fell asleep almost at once, utterly
exhausted, yet still in dread of hearing again that weird sound of multitudinous
pattering, or of feeling the pressure upon my heart that had made it difficult
to breathe.
The
sun was high in the heavens when my companion woke me from a heavy sleep
and announced that the porridge was cooked and there was just time to bathe.
The grateful smell of frizzling bacon entered the tent door.
"River
still rising," he said, "and several islands out in mid-stream have disappeared
altogether. Our own island's much smaller."
"Any
wood left?" I asked sleepily.
"The
wood and the island will finish to-morrow in a dead heat," he laughed,
"but there's enough to last us till then."
I plunged
in from the point of the island, which had indeed altered a lot in size
and shape during the night, and was swept down in a moment to the landing-place
opposite the tent. The water was icy, and the banks flew by like the country
from an express train. Bathing under such conditions was an exhilarating
operation, and the terror of the night seemed cleansed out of me by a process
of evaporation in the brain. The sun was blazing hot; not a cloud showed
itself anywhere; the wind, however, had not abated one little jot.
Quite
suddenly then the implied meaning of the Swede's words flashed across me,
showing that he no longer wished to leave post-haste, and had changed his
mind. "Enough to last till to-morrow" -- he assumed we should stay on the
island another night. It struck me as odd. The night before he was so positive
the other way. How had the change come about?
Great
crumblings of the banks occurred at breakfast, with heavy splashings and
clouds of spray which the wind brought into our frying-pan, and my fellow-traveller
talked incessantly about the difficulty the Vienna-Pesth steamers must
have to find the channel in flood. But the state of his mind interested
and impressed me far more than the state of the river or the difficulties
of the steamers. He had changed somehow since the evening before. His manner
was different -- a trifle excited, a trifle shy, with a sort of suspicion
about his voice and gestures. I hardly know how to describe it now
in cold blood, but at the time I remember being quite certain of
one thing -- that he had become frightened.
He ate
very little breakfast, and for once omitted to smoke his pipe. He had the
map spread open beside him, and kept studying its markings.
"We'd
better get off sharp in an hour," I said presently, feeling for an opening
that must bring him indirectly to a partial confession at any rate. And
his answer puzzled me uncomfortably: "Rather! If they'll let us."
"Who'll
let us? The elements?" I asked quickly, with affected indifference.
"The
powers of this awful place, whoever they are," he replied, keeping his
eyes on the map. "The gods are here, if they are anywhere at all in the
world."
"The
elements are always the true immortals," I replied, laughing as naturally
as I could manage, yet knowing quite well that my face reflected my true
feelings when he looked up gravely at me and spoke across the smoke:
"We
shall be fortunate if we get away without further disaster."
This
was exactly what I had dreaded, and I screwed myself up to the point of
the direct question. It was like agreeing to allow the dentist to extract
the tooth; it had to come anyhow in the long run, and the rest was all
pretence.
"Further
disaster! Why, what's happened?"
"For
one thing -- the steering paddle's gone," he said quietly.
"The
steering paddle gone!" I repeated, greatly excited, for this was our rudder,
and the Danube in flood without a rudder was suicide. "But what --"
"And
there's a tear in the bottom of the canoe," he added, with a genuine little
tremor in his voice.
I continued
staring at him, able only to repeat the words in his face somewhat foolishly.
There, in the heat of the sun, and on this burning sand, I was aware of
a freezing atmosphere descending round us. I got up to follow him, for
he merely nodded his head gravely and led the way towards the tent a few
yards on the other side of the fireplace. The canoe still lay there as
I had last seen her in the night, ribs uppermost, the paddles, or rather,
the paddle, on the sand beside her.
"There's
only one," he said, stooping to pick it up. "And here's the rent in the
base-board."
It was
on the tip of my tongue to tell him that I had clearly noticed two paddles
a few hours before, but a second impulse made me think better of it, and
I said nothing. I approached to see.
There
was a long, finely made tear in the bottom of the canoe where a little
slither of wood had been neatly taken clean out; it looked as if the tooth
of a sharp rock or snag had eaten down her length, and investigation showed
that the hole went through. Had we launched out in her without observing
it we must inevitably have foundered. At first the water would have made
the wood swell so as to close the hole, but once out in mid-stream the
water must have poured in, and the canoe, never more than two inches above
the surface, would have filled and sunk very rapidly.
"There,
you see an attempt to prepare a victim for the sacrifice," I heard him
saying, more to himself than to me, "two victims rather," he added as he
bent over and ran his fingers along the slit.
I began
to whistle -- a thing I always do unconsciously when utterly nonplussed
-- and purposely paid no attention to his words. I was determined to consider
them foolish.
"It
wasn't there last night," he said presently, straightening up from his
examination and looking anywhere but at me.
"We
must have scratched her in landing, of course," I stopped whistling to
say. "The stones are very sharp."
I stopped
abruptly, for at that moment he turned round and met my eye squarely. I
knew just as well as he did how impossible my explanation was. There were
no stones, to begin with.
"And
then there's this to explain too," he added quietly, handing me the paddle
and pointing to the blade.
A new
and curious emotion spread freezingly over me as I took and examined it.
The blade was scraped down all over, beautifully scraped, as though someone
had sand-papered it with care, making it so thin that the first vigorous
stroke must have snapped it off at the elbow.
"One
of us walked in his sleep and did this thing," I said feebly, "or -- or
it has been filed by the constant stream of sand particles blown against
it by the wind, perhaps."
"Ah,"
said the Swede, turning away, laughing a little, "you can explain everything."
"The
same wind that caught the steering paddle and flung it so near the bank
that it fell in with the next lump that crumbled," I called out after him,
absolutely determined to find an explanation for everything he showed me.
"I see,"
he shouted back, turning his head to look at me before disappearing among
the willow bushes.
Once
alone with these perplexing evidences of personal agency, I think my first
thoughts took the form of "One of us must have done this thing, and it
certainly was not I." But my second thought decided how impossible it was
to suppose, under all the circumstances, that either of us had done it.
That my companion, the trusted friend of a dozen similar expeditions, could
have knowingly had a hand in it, was a suggestion not to be entertained
for a moment. Equally absurd seemed the explanation that this imperturbable
and densely practical nature had suddenly become insane and was busied
with insane purposes.
Yet
the fact remained that what disturbed me most, and kept my fear actively
alive even in this blaze of sunshine and wild beauty, was the clear certainty
that some curious alteration had come about in his mind -- that the was
nervous, timid, suspicious, aware of goings on he did not speak about,
watching a series of secret and hitherto unmentionable events -- waiting,
in a word, for a climax that he expected, and, I thought, expected very
soon. This grew up in my mind intuitively -- I hardly knew how.
I made
a hurried examination of the tent and its surroundings, but the measurements
of the night remained the same. There were deep hollows formed in the sand
I now noticed for the first time, basin-shaped and of various depths and
sizes, varying from that of a tea-cup to a large bowl. The wind, no doubt,
was responsible for these miniature craters, just as it was for lifting
the paddle and tossing it towards the water. The rent in the canoe was
the only thing that seemed quite inexplicable; and, after all, it was conceivable
that a sharp point had caught it when we landed. The examination I made
of the shore did not assist this theory, but all the same I clung to it
with that diminishing portion of my
intelligence which I called
my "reason". An explanation of some kind was an absolute necessity, just
as some working explanation of the universe is necessary -- however absurd
-- to the happiness of every individual who seeks to do his duty in the
world and face the problems of life. The simile seemed to me at the time
an exact parallel.
I at
once set the pitch melting, and presently the Swede joined me at the work,
though under the best conditions in the world the canoe could not be safe
for travelling till the following day. I drew his attention casually to
the hollows in the sand.
"Yes,"
he said, "I know. They're all over the island. But you can explain them,
no doubt!"
"Wind,
of course," I answered without hesitation. "Have you never watched those
little whirlwinds in the street that twist and twirl everything into a
circle? This sand's loose enough to yield, that's all."
He made
no reply, and we worked on in silence for a bit. I watched him surreptitiously
all the time, and I had an idea he was watching me. He seemed, too, to
be always listening attentively to something I could not hear, or perhaps
for something that he expected to hear, for he kept turning about and staring
into the bushes, and up into the sky, and out across the water where it
was visible through the openings among the willows. Sometimes he
even put his hand to his ear and held it there for several minutes. He
said nothing to me, however, about it, and I asked no questions. And meanwhile,
as he mended that torn canoe with the skill and address of a red Indian,
I was glad to notice his absorption in the work, for there was a vague
dread in my heart that he would speak of the changed aspect of the willows.
And, if he had noticed that, my imagination could no longer be held a sufficient
explanation of it.
At length,
after a long pause, he began to talk.
"Queer
thing," he added in a hurried sort of voice, as though he wanted to say
something and get it over. "Queer thing. I mean, about that otter last
night."
I had
expected something so totally different that he caught me with surprise,
and I looked up sharply.
"Shows
how lonely this place is. Otters are awfully shy things --"
"I don't
mean that, of course," he interrupted. "I mean -- do you think -- did you
think it really was an otter?"
"What
else, in the name of Heaven, what else?"
"You
know, I saw it before you did, and at first it seemed -- so much bigger
than an otter."
"The
sunset as you looked up-stream magnified it, or something," I replied.
He looked
at me absently a moment, as though his mind were busy with other thoughts.
"It
had such extraordinary yellow eyes," he went on half to himself.
"That
was the sun too," I laughed, a trifle boisterously. "I suppose you'll wonder
next if that fellow in the boat --"
I suddenly
decided not to finish the sentence. He was in the act again of listening,
turning his head to the wind, and something in the expression of his face
made me halt. The subject dropped, and we went on with our caulking. Apparently
he had not noticed my unfinished sentence. Five minutes later, however,
he looked at me across the canoe, the smoking pitch in his hand, his face
exceedingly grave.
"I did
rather wonder, if you want to know," he said slowly, "what that thing in
the boat was. I remember thinking at the time it was not a man. The whole
business seemed to
rise quite suddenly out of the
water."
I laughed
again boisterously in his face, but this time there was impatience, and
a strain of anger too, in my feeling.
"Look
here now," I cried, "this place is quite queer enough without going out
of our way to imagine things! That boat was an ordinary boat, and the man
in it was an ordinary man, and they were both going down-stream as fast
as they could lick. And that otter was an otter, so don't let's play the
fool about it!"
He looked
steadily at me with the same grave expression. He was not in the least
annoyed. I took courage from his silence.
"And,
for Heaven's sake," I went on, "don't keep pretending you hear things,
because it only gives me the jumps, and there's nothing to hear but the
river and this cursed old thundering wind."
"You
fool!" he answered in a low, shocked voice, "you utter fool. That's just
the way all victims talk. As if you didn't understand just as well as I
do!" he sneered with scorn in his voice, and a sort of resignation. "The
best thing you can do is to keep quiet and try to hold your mind as firm
as possible. This feeble attempt at self-deception only makes the truth
harder when you're forced to meet it."
My little
effort was over, and I found nothing more to say, for I knew quite well
his words were true, and that I was the fool, not he. Up to a certain stage
in the adventure he kept ahead of me easily, and I think I felt annoyed
to be out of it, to be thus proved less psychic, less sensitive than himself
to these extraordinary happenings, and half ignorant all the time of what
was going on under my very nose. He knew from the very beginning, apparently.
But at the moment I wholly missed the point of his words about the necessity
of there being a victim, and that we ourselves were destined to satisfy
the want. I dropped all pretence thenceforward, but thenceforward likewise
my fear increased steadily to the climax.
"But
you're quite right about one thing," he added, before the subject passed,
"and that is that we're wiser not to talk about it, or even to think about
it, because what one thinks finds expression in words, and what one says,
happens."
That
afternoon, while the canoe dried and hardened, we spent trying to fish,
testing the leak, collecting wood, and watching the enormous flood of rising
water. Masses of driftwood swept near our shores sometimes, and we fished
for them with long willow branches. The island grew perceptibly smaller
as the banks were torn away with great gulps and splashes. The weather
kept brilliantly fine till about four o'clock, and then for the first time
for three days the wind showed signs of abating. Clouds began to gather
in the south-west, spreading thence slowly over the sky.
This
lessening of the wind came as a great relief, for the incessant roaring,
banging, and thundering had irritated our nerves. Yet the silence that
came about five o'clock with its sudden cessation was in a manner quite
as oppressive. The booming of the river had everything in its own way then;
it filled the air with deep murmurs, more musical than the wind noises,
but infinitely more monotonous. The wind held many notes, rising, falling
always beating out some sort of great elemental tune; whereas the river's
song lay between three notes at most -- dull pedal notes, that held a lugubrious
quality foreign to the wind, and somehow seemed to me, in my then nervous
state, to sound wonderfully well the music of doom.
It was
extraordinary, too, how the withdrawal suddenly of bright sunlight took
everything out of the landscape that made for cheerfulness; and since this
particular landscape had already managed to convey the suggestion of something
sinister, the change of course was all the more unwelcome and noticeable.
For me, I know, the darkening outlook became distinctly more alarming,
and I found myself more than once calculating how soon after sunset the
full moon would get up in the east, and whether the gathering clouds would
greatly interfere with her lighting of the little island.
With
this general hush of the wind -- though it still indulged in occasional
brief gusts -- the river seemed to me to grow blacker, the willows to stand
more densely together. The latter, too, kept up a sort of independent movement
of their own, rustling among themselves when no wind stirred, and shaking
oddly from the roots upwards. When common objects in this way be come charged
with the suggestion of horror, they stimulate the imagination far more
than things of unusual appearance; and these bushes, crowding huddled about
us, assumed for me in the darkness a bizarre grotesquerie of appearance
that lent to them somehow the aspect of purposeful and living creatures.
Their very ordinariness, I felt, masked what was malignant and hostile
to us. The forces of the region drew nearer with the coming of night. They
were focusing upon our island, and more particularly upon ourselves. For
thus, somehow, in the terms of the imagination, did my really indescribable
sensations in this extraordinary place present themselves.
I had
slept a good deal in the early afternoon, and had thus recovered somewhat
from the exhaustion of a disturbed night, but this only served apparently
to render me more susceptible than before to the obsessing spell of the
haunting. I fought against it, laughing at my feelings as absurd and childish,
with very obvious physiological explanations, yet, in spite of every effort,
they gained in strength upon me so that I dreaded the night as a child
lost in a forest must dread the approach of darkness.
The
canoe we had carefully covered with a waterproof sheet during the day,
and the one remaining paddle had been securely tied by the Swede to the
base of a tree, lest the wind should rob us of that too. From five o'clock
onwards I busied myself with the stew-pot and preparations for dinner,
it being my turn to cook that night. We had potatoes, onions, bits of bacon
fat to add flavour, and a general thick residue from former stews at the
bottom of the pot; with black bread broken up into it the result was most
excellent, and it was followed by a stew of plums with sugar and a brew
of strong tea with dried milk. A good pile of wood lay close at hand, and
the absence of wind made my duties easy. My companion sat lazily watching
me, dividing his attentions between cleaning his pipe and giving useless
advice -- an admitted privilege of the off-duty man. He had been very quiet
all the afternoon, engaged in re-caulking the canoe, strengthening the
tent ropes, and fishing for driftwood while I slept. No more talk about
undesirable things had passed between us, and I think his only remarks
had to do with the gradual destruction of the island, which he declared
was not fully a third smaller than when we first landed.
The
pot had just begun to bubble when I heard his voice calling to me from
the bank, where he had wandered away without my noticing. I ran up.
"Come
and listen," he said, "and see what you make of it." He held his hand cupwise
to his ear, as so often before.
"Now
do you hear anything?" he asked, watching me curiously.
We stood
there, listening attentively together. At first I heard only the deep note
of the water and the hissings rising from its turbulent surface. The willows,
for once, were motionless and silent. Then a sound began to reach my ears
faintly, a peculiar sound -- something like the humming of a distant gong.
It seemed to come across to us in the darkness from the waste of swamps
and willows opposite. It was repeated at regular intervals, but it was
certainly neither the sound of a bell nor the hooting of a distant steamer.
I can liken it to nothing so much as to the sound of an immense gong, suspended
far up in the sky, repeating incessantly its muffled metallic note, soft
and musical, as it was repeatedly struck. My heart quickened as I listened.
"I've
heard it all day," said my companion. "While you slept this afternoon it
came all round the island. I hunted it down, but could never get near enough
to see -- to localise it correctly. Sometimes it was overhead, and sometimes
it seemed under the water. Once or twice, too, I could have sworn it was
not outside at all, but within myself -- you know -- the way a sound in
the fourth dimension is supposed to come."
I was
too much puzzled to pay much attention to his words. I listened carefully,
striving to associate it with any known familiar sound I could think of,
but without success. It changed in the direction, too, coming nearer, and
then sinking utterly away into remote distance. I cannot say that it was
ominous in quality, because to me it seemed distinctly musical, yet I must
admit it set going a distressing feeling that made me wish I had never
heard it.
"The
wind blowing in those sand-funnels," I said determined to find an explanation,
"or the bushes rubbing together after the storm perhaps."
"It
comes off the whole swamp," my friend answered. "It comes from everywhere
at once." He ignored my explanations. "It comes from the willow bushes
somehow -- "
"But
now the wind has dropped," I objected. "The willows can hardly make a noise
by themselves, can they?"
His
answer frightened me, first because I had dreaded it, and secondly, because
I knew intuitively it was true.
"It
is because the wind has dropped we now hear it. It was drowned before.
It is the cry, I believe, of the -- "
I dashed
back to my fire, warned by the sound of bubbling that the stew was in danger,
but determined at the same time to escape further conversation. I was resolute,
if possible, to avoid the exchanging of views. I dreaded, too, that he
would begin about the gods, or the elemental forces, or something else
disquieting, and I wanted to keep myself well in hand for what might happen
later. There was another night to be faced before we escaped from this
distressing place, and there was no knowing yet what it might bring forth.
"Come
and cut up bread for the pot," I called to him, vigorously stirring the
appetising mixture. That stew-pot held sanity for us both, and the thought
made me laugh.
He came
over slowly and took the provision sack from the tree, fumbling in its
mysterious depths, and then emptying the entire contents upon the ground-sheet
at his feet.
"Hurry
up!" I cried; "it's boiling."
The
Swede burst out into a roar of laughter that startled me. It was forced
laughter, not artificial exactly, but mirthless.
"There's
nothing here!" he shouted, holding his sides.
"Bread,
I mean."
"It's
gone. There is no bread. They've taken it!"
I dropped
the long spoon and ran up. Everything the sack had contained lay upon the
ground-sheet, but there was no loaf.
The
whole dead weight of my growing fear fell upon me and shook me. Then I
burst out laughing too. It was the only thing to do: and the sound of my
laughter also made me understand his. The stain of psychical pressure caused
it -- this explosion of unnatural laughter in both of us; it was an effort
of repressed forces to seek relief; it was a temporary safety-valve. And
with both of us it ceased quite suddenly.
"How
criminally stupid of me!" I cried, still determined to be consistent and
find an explanation. "I clean forgot to buy a loaf at Pressburg. That chattering
woman put everything out of my head, and I must have left it lying on the
counter or -- "
"The
oatmeal, too, is much less than it was this morning," the Swede interrupted.
Why
in the world need he draw attention to it? I thought angrily.
"There's
enough for to-morrow," I said, stirring vigorously, "and we can get lots
more at Komorn or Gran. In twenty-four hours we shall be miles from here."
"I hope
so -- to God," he muttered, putting the things back into the sack, "unless
we're claimed first as victims for the sacrifice," he added with a foolish
laugh. He dragged the sack into the tent, for safety's sake, I suppose,
and I heard him mumbling to himself, but so indistinctly that it seemed
quite natural for me to ignore his words.
Our
meal was beyond question a gloomy one, and we ate it almost in silence,
avoiding one another's eyes, and keeping the fire bright. Then we washed
up and prepared for the night, and, once smoking, our minds unoccupied
with any definite duties, the apprehension I had felt all day long became
more and more acute. It was not then active fear, I think, but the very
vagueness of its origin distressed me far more that if I had been able
to ticket and face it squarely. The curious sound I have likened to the
note of a gong became now almost incessant, and filled the stillness of
the night with a faint, continuous ringing rather than a series of distinct
notes. At one time it was behind and at another time in front of us. Sometimes
I fancied it came from the bushes on our left, and then again from the
clumps on our right. More often it hovered directly overhead like the whirring
of wings. It was really everywhere at once, behind, in front, at our sides
and over our heads, completely surrounding us. The sound really defies
description. But nothing within my knowledge is like that ceaseless muffled
humming rising off the deserted world of swamps and willows.
We sat
smoking in comparative silence, the strain growing every minute greater.
The worst feature of the situation seemed to me that we did not know what
to expect, and could therefore make no sort of preparation by way of defence.
We could anticipate nothing. My explanations made in the sunshine, moreover,
now came to haunt me with their foolish and wholly unsatisfactory nature,
and it was more and more clear to us that some kind of plain talk with
my companion was inevitable, whether I liked it or not. After all, we had
to spend the night together, and to sleep in the same tent side by side.
I saw that I could not get along much longer without the support of his
mind, and for that, of course, plain talk was imperative. As long as possible,
however, I postponed this little climax, and tried to ignore or laugh at
the occasional sentences he flung into the emptiness.
Some
of these sentences, moreover, were confoundedly disquieting to me, coming
as they did to corroborate much that I felt myself; corroboration, too
-- which made it so much more convincing -- from a totally different point
of view. He composed such curious sentences, and hurled them at me in such
an inconsequential sort of way, as though his main line of thought was
secret to himself, and these fragments were mere bits he found it impossible
to digest. He got rid of them by uttering them. Speech relieved him. It
was like being sick.
"There
are things about us, I'm sure, that make for disorder, disintegration,
destruction, our destruction," he said once, while the fire blazed between
us. "We've strayed out of a safe line somewhere."
And,
another time, when the gong sounds had come nearer, ringing much louder
than before, and directly over our heads, he said as though talking to
himself:
"I don't
think a gramophone would show any record of that. The sound doesn't come
to me by the ears at all. The vibrations reach me in another manner altogether,
and seem to be within me, which is precisely how a fourth dimensional sound
might be supposed to make itself heard."
I purposely
made no reply to this, but I sat up a little closer to the fire and peered
about me into the darkness. The clouds were massed all over the sky, and
no trace of moonlight came through. Very still, too, everything was, so
that the river and the frogs had things all their own way.
"It
has that about it," he went on, "which is utterly out of common experience.
It is unknown. Only one thing describes it really; it is a non-human sound;
I mean a sound outside humanity."
Having
rid himself of this indigestible morsel, he lay quiet for a time, but he
had so admirably expressed my own feeling that it was a relief to have
the thought out, and to have confined it by the limitation of words from
dangerous wandering to and fro in the mind.
The
solitude of that Danube camping-place, can I ever forget it? The feeling
of being utterly alone on an empty planet! My thoughts ran incessantly
upon cities and the haunts of men. I would have given my soul, as the saying
is, for the "feel" of those Bavarian villages we had passed through by
the score; for the normal, human commonplaces; peasants drinking beer,
tables beneath the trees, hot sunshine, and a ruined castle on the rocks
behind the red-roofed church. Even the tourists would have been welcome.
Yet
what I felt of dread was no ordinary ghostly fear. It was infinitely greater,
stranger, and seemed to arise from some dim ancestral sense of terror more
profoundly disturbing than anything I had known or dreamed of. We had "strayed",
as the Swede put it, into some region or some set of conditions where the
risks were great, yet unintelligible to us; where the frontiers of some
unknown world lay close about us. It was a spot held by the dwellers in
some outer space, a sort of peep-hole whence they could spy upon the earth,
themselves unseen, a point where the veil between had worn a little thin.
As the final result of too long a sojourn here, we should be carried over
the border and deprived of what we called "our lives", yet by mental, not
physical, processes. In that sense, as he said, we should be the victims
of our adventure -- a sacrifice.
It took
us in different fashion, each according to the measure of his sensitiveness
and powers of resistance. I translated it vaguely into a personification
of the mightily disturbed elements, investing them with the horror of a
deliberate and malefic purpose, resentful of our audacious intrusion into
their breeding-place; whereas my friend threw it into the unoriginal form
at first of a trespass on some ancient shrine, some place where the old
gods still held sway, where the emotional forces of former worshippers
still clung, and the ancestral portion of him yielded to the old pagan
spell.
At any
rate, here was a place unpolluted by men, kept clean by the winds from
coarsening human influences, a place where spiritual agencies were within
reach and aggressive. Never, before or since, have I been so attacked by
indescribable suggestions of a "beyond region", of another scheme of life,
another revolution not parallel to the human. And in the end our minds
would succumb under the weight of the awful spell, and we should be drawn
across the frontier into their world.
Small
things testified to the amazing influence of the place, and now in the
silence round the fire they allowed themselves to be noted by the mind.
The very atmosphere had proved itself a magnifying medium to distort every
indication: the otter rolling in the current, the hurrying boatman making
signs, the shifting willows, one and all had been robbed of its natural
character, and revealed in something of its other aspect -- as it existed
across the border to that other region. And this changed aspect I felt
was now not merely to me, but to the race. The whole experience whose verge
we touched was unknown to humanity at all. It was a new order of experience,
and in the true sense of the word unearthly.
"It's
the deliberate, calculating purpose that reduces one's courage to zero,"
the Swede said suddenly, as if he had been actually following my thoughts.
"Otherwise imagination might count for much. But the paddle, the canoe,
the lessening food -- "
"Haven't
I explained all that once?" I interrupted viciously.
"You
have," he answered dryly; "you have indeed."
He made
other remarks too, as usual, about what he called the "plain determination
to provide a victim"; but, having now arranged my thoughts better, I recognised
that this was simply the cry of his frightened soul against the knowledge
that he was being attacked in a vital part, and that he would be somehow
taken or destroyed. The situation called for a courage and calmness of
reasoning that neither of us could compass, and I have never before been
so clearly conscious of two persons in me -- the one that explained everything,
and the other that laughed at such foolish explanations, yet was horribly
afraid.
Meanwhile,
in the pitchy night the fire died down and the wood pile grew small. Neither
of us moved to replenish the stock, and the darkness consequently came
up very close to our faces. A few feet beyond the circle of firelight it
was inky black. Occasionally a stray puff of wind set the willows shivering
about us, but apart from this not very welcome sound a deep and depressing
silence reigned, broken only by the gurgling of the river and the humming
in the air overhead.
We both
missed, I think, the shouting company of the winds.
At length,
at a moment when a stray puff prolonged itself as though the wind were
about to rise again, I reached the point for me of saturation, the point
where it was absolutely necessary to find relief in plain speech, or else
to betray myself by some hysterical extravagance that must have been far
worse in its effect upon both of us. I kicked the fire into a blaze, and
turned to my companion abruptly. He looked up with a start.
"I can't
disguise it any longer," I said; "I don't like this place, and the darkness,
and the noises, and the awful feelings I get. There's something here that
beats me utterly. I'm in a blue funk, and that's the plain truth. If the
other shore was -- different, I swear I'd be inclined to swim for it!"
The
Swede's face turned very white beneath the deep tan of sun and wind. He
stared straight at me and answered quietly, but his voice betrayed his
huge excitement by its unnatural calmness. For the moment, at any rate,
he was the strong man of the two. He was more phlegmatic, for one thing.
"It's
not a physical condition we can escape from by running away," he replied,
in the tone of a doctor diagnosing some grave disease; "we must sit tight
and wait. There are forces close here that could kill a herd of elephants
in a second as easily as you or I could squash a fly. Our only chance is
to keep perfectly still. Our insignificance perhaps may save us."
I put
a dozen questions into my expression of face, but found no words. It was
precisely like listening to an accurate description of a disease whose
symptoms had puzzled me.
"I mean
that so far, although aware of our disturbing presence, they have not found
us -- not 'located' us, as the Americans say," he went on. "They're blundering
about like men hunting for a leak of gas. The paddle and canoe and provisions
prove that. I think they feel us, but cannot actually see us. We must keep
our minds quiet -- it's our minds they feel. We must control our thoughts,
or it's all up with us."
"Death,
you mean?" I stammered, icy with the horror of his suggestion.
"Worse
-- by far," he said. "Death, according to one's belief, means either annihilation
or release from the limitations of the senses, but it involves no change
of character. You don't suddenly alter just because the body's gone. But
this means a radical alteration, a complete change, a horrible loss of
oneself by substitution -- far worse than death, and not even annihilation.
We happen to have camped in a spot where their region touches ours, where
the veil between has worn thin" -- horrors! he was using my very own phrase,
my actual words -- "so that they are aware of our being in their neighbourhood."
"But
who are aware?" I asked.
I forgot
the shaking of the willows in the windless calm, the humming overhead,
everything except that I was waiting for an answer that I dreaded more
than I can possibly explain.
He lowered
his voice at once to reply, leaning forward a little over the fire, an
indefinable change in his face that made me avoid his eyes and look down
upon the ground.
"All
my life," he said, "I have been strangely, vividly conscious of another
region -- not far removed from our own world in one sense, yet wholly different
in kind -- where great things go on unceasingly, where immense and terrible
personalities hurry by, intent on vast purposes compared to which earthly
affairs, the rise and fall of nations, the destinies of empires, the fate
of armies and continents, are all as dust in the balance; vast purposes,
I mean, that deal directly with the soul, and not indirectly with more
expressions of the soul -- "
"I suggest
just now -- " I began, seeking to stop him, feeling as though I was face
to face with a madman. But he instantly overbore me with his torrent that
had to come.
"You
think," he said, "it is the spirit of the elements, and I thought perhaps
it was the old gods. But I tell you now it is -- neither. These would be
comprehensible entities, for they have relations with men, depending upon
them for worship or sacrifice, whereas these beings who are now about us
have absolutely nothing to do with mankind, and it is mere chance that
their space happens just at this spot to touch our own."
The
mere conception, which his words somehow made so convincing, as I listened
to them there in the dark stillness of that lonely island, set me shaking
a little all over. I found it impossible to control my movements.
"And
what do you propose?" I began again.
"A sacrifice,
a victim, might save us by distracting them until we could get away," he
went on, "just as the wolves stop to devour the dogs and give the sleigh
another start. But -- I see no chance of any other victim now."
I stared
blankly at him. The gleam in his eye was dreadful. Presently he continued.
"It's
the willows, of course. The willows mask the others, but the others are
feeling about for us. If we let our minds betray our fear, we're lost,
lost utterly." He looked at me with an expression so calm, so determined,
so sincere, that I no longer had any doubts as to his sanity. He was as
sane as any man ever was. "If we can hold out through the night," he added,
"we may get off in the daylight unnoticed, or rather, undiscovered."
"But
you really think a sacrifice would -- "
That
gong-like humming came down very close over our heads as I spoke, but it
was my friend's scared face that really stopped my mouth.
"Hush!"
he whispered, holding up his hand. "Do not mention them more than you can
help. Do not refer to them by name. To name is to reveal; it is the inevitable
clue, and our only hope lies in ignoring them, in order that they may ignore
us."
"Even
in thought?" He was extraordinarily agitated.
"Especially
in thought. Our thoughts make spirals in their world. We must keep them
out of our minds at all costs if possible."
I raked
the fire together to prevent the darkness having everything its own way.
I never longed for the sun as I longed for it then in the awful blackness
of that summer night.
"Were
you awake all last night?" he went on suddenly.
"I slept
badly a little after dawn," I replied evasively, trying to follow his instructions,
which I knew instinctively were true, "but the wind, of course -- "
"I know.
But the wind won't account for all the noises."
"Then
you heard it too?"
"The
multiplying countless little footsteps I heard," he said, adding, after
a moment's hesitation, "and that other sound -- "
"You
mean above the tent, and the pressing down upon us of something tremendous,
gigantic?"
He nodded
significantly.
"It
was like the beginning of a sort of inner suffocation?" I said.
"Partly,
yes. It seemed to me that the weight of the atmosphere had been altered
-- had increased enormously, so that we should have been crushed."
"And
that," I went on, determined to have it all out, pointing upwards where
the gong-like note hummed ceaselessly, rising and falling like wind. "What
do you make of that?"
"It's
their sound," he whispered gravely. "It's the sound of their world, the
humming in their region. The division here is so thin that it leaks through
somehow. But, if you listen carefully, you'll find it's not above so much
as around us. It's in the willows. It's the willows themselves humming,
because here the willows have been made symbols of the forces that are
against us."
I could
not follow exactly what he meant by this, yet the thought and idea in my
mind were beyond question the thought an idea in his. I realised what he
realised, only with less power of analysis than his. It was on the tip
of my tongue to tell him at last about my hallucination of the ascending
figures and the moving bushes, when he suddenly thrust his face again close
into mine across the firelight and began to speak in a very earnest whisper.
He amazed me by his calmness and pluck, his apparent control of the situation.
This man I had for years deemed unimaginative, stolid!
"Now
listen," he said. "The only thing for us to do is to go on as though nothing
had happened, follow our usual habits, go to bed, and so forth; pretend
we feel nothing and notice nothing. It is a question wholly of the mind,
and the less we think about them the better our chance of escape. Above
all, don't think, for what you think happens!"
"All
right," I managed to reply, simply breathless with his words and the strangeness
of it all; "all right, I'll try, but tell me one more thing first. Tell
me what you make of those hollows in the ground all about us, those sand-funnels?"
"No!"
he cried, forgetting to whisper in his excitement. "I dare not, simply
dare not, put the thought into words. If you have not guessed I am glad.
Don't try to. They have put it into my mind; try your hardest to prevent
their putting it into yours."
He sank
his voice again to a whisper before he finished, and I did not press him
to explain. There was already just about as much horror in me as I could
hold. The conversation came to an end, and we smoked our pipes busily in
silence.
Then
something happened, something unimportant apparently, as the way is when
the nerves are in a very great state of tension, and this small thing for
a brief space gave me an entirely different point of view. I chanced to
look down at my sand-shoe -- the sort we used for the canoe -- and something
to do with the hole at the toe suddenly recalled to me the London shop
where I had bought them, the difficulty the man had in fitting me, and
other details of the uninteresting but practical operation. At once, in
its train, followed a wholesome view of the modern sceptical world I was
accustomed to move in at home. I thought of roast beef, and ale, motor-cars,
policemen, brass bands, and a dozen other things that proclaimed the soul
of ordinariness or utility. The effect was immediate and astonishing even
to myself. Psychologically, I suppose, it was simply a sudden and violent
reaction after the strain of living in an atmosphere of things that to
the normal consciousness must seem impossible and incredible. But, whatever
the cause, it momentarily lifted the spell from my heart, and left me for
the short space of a minute feeling free and utterly unafraid. I looked
up at my friend opposite.
"You
damned old pagan!" I cried, laughing aloud in his face. "You imaginative
idiot! You superstitious idolator! You -- "
I stopped
in the middle, seized anew by the old horror. I tried to smother the sound
of my voice as something sacrilegious. The Swede, of course, heard it too
-- the strange cry overhead in the darkness -- and that sudden drop in
the air as though something had come nearer.
He had
turned ashen white under the tan. He stood bolt upright in front of the
fire, stiff as a rod, staring at me.
"After
that," he said in a sort of helpless, frantic way, "we must go! We can't
stay now; we must strike camp this very instant and go on -- down the river."
He was
talking, I saw, quite wildly, his words dictated by abject terror -- the
terror he had resisted so long, but which had caught him at last.
"In
the dark?" I exclaimed, shaking with fear after my hysterical outburst,
but still realising our position better than he did. "Sheer madness! The
river's in flood, and we've only got a single paddle. Besides, we only
go deeper into their country! There's nothing ahead for fifty miles but
willows, willows, willows!"
He sat
down again in a state of semi-collapse. The positions, by one of those
kaleidoscopic changes nature loves, were suddenly reversed, and the control
of our forces passed over into my hands. His mind at last had reached the
point where it was beginning to weaken.
"What
on earth possessed you to do such a thing?" he whispered with the awe of
genuine terror in his voice and face.
I crossed
round to his side of the fire. I took both his hands in mine, kneeling
down beside him and looking straight into his frightened eyes.
"We'll
make one more blaze," I said firmly, "and then turn in for the night. At
sunrise we'll be off full speed for Komorn. Now, pull yourself together
a bit, and remember your own advice about not thinking fear!"
He said
no more, and I saw that he would agree and obey. In some measure, too,
it was a sort of relief to get up and make an excursion into the darkness
for more wood. We kept close together, almost touching, groping among the
bushes and along the bank. The humming overhead never ceased, but seemed
to me to grow louder as we increased our distance from the fire. It was
shivery work!
We were
grubbing away in the middle of a thickish clump of willows where some driftwood
from a former flood had caught high among the branches, when my body was
seized in a grip that made me half drop upon the sand. It was the Swede.
He had fallen against me, and was clutching me for support. I heard his
breath coming and going in short gasps.
"Look!
By my soul!" he whispered, and for the first time in my experience I knew
what it was to hear tears of terror in a human voice. He was pointing to
the fire, some fifty feet away. I followed the direction of his finger,
and I swear my heart missed a beat.
There,
in front of the dim glow, something was moving.
I saw
it through a veil that hung before my eyes like the gauze drop-curtain
used at the back of a theatre -- hazily a little. It was neither a human
figure nor an animal. To me it gave the strange impression of being as
large as several animals grouped together, like horses, two or three, moving
slowly. The Swede, too, got a similar result, though expressing it differently,
for he thought it was shaped and sized like a clump of willow bushes, rounded
at the top, and moving all over upon its surface -- "coiling upon itself
like smoke," he said afterwards.
"I watched
it settle downwards through the bushes," he sobbed at me. "Look, by God!
It's coming this way! Oh, oh!" -- he gave a kind of whistling cry. "They've
found us."
I gave
one terrified glance, which just enabled me to see that the shadowy form
was swinging towards us through the bushes, and then I collapsed backwards
with a crash into the branches. These failed, of course, to support my
weight, so that with the Swede on top of me we fell in a struggling heap
upon the sand. I really hardly knew what was happening. I was conscious
only of a sort of enveloping sensation of icy fear that plucked the nerves
out of their fleshly covering, twisted them this way and that, and replaced
them quivering. My eyes were tightly shut; something in my throat choked
me; a feeling that my consciousness was expanding, extending out into space,
swiftly gave way to another feeling that I was losing it altogether, and
about to die.
An acute
spasm of pain passed through me, and I was aware that the Swede had hold
of me in such a way that he hurt me abominably. It was the way he caught
at me in falling.
But
it was the pain, he declared afterwards, that saved me; it caused me to
forget them and think of something else at the very instant when they were
about to find me. It concealed my mind from them at the moment of discovery,
yet just in time to evade their terrible seizing of me. He himself, he
says, actually swooned at the same moment, and that was what saved him.
I only
know that at a later date, how long or short is impossible to say, I found
myself scrambling up out of the slippery network of willow branches, and
saw my companion standing in front of me holding out a hand to assist me.
I stared at him in a dazed way, rubbing the arm he had twisted for me.
Nothing came to me to say, somehow.
"I lost
consciousness for a moment or two," I heard him say. "That's what saved
me. It made me stop thinking about them."
"You
nearly broke my arm in two," I said, uttering my only connected thought
at the moment. A numbness came over me.
"That's
what saved you!" he replied. "Between us, we've managed to set them off
on a false tack somewhere. The humming has ceased. It's gone -- for the
moment at any rate!"
A wave
of hysterical laughter seized me again, and this time spread to my friend
too -- great healing gusts of shaking laughter that brought a tremendous
sense of relief in their train. We made our way back to the fire and put
the wood on so that it blazed at once. Then we saw that the tent had fallen
over and lay in a tangled heap upon the ground.
We picked
it up, and during the process tripped more than once and caught our feet
in sand.
"It's
those sand-funnels," exclaimed the Swede, when the tent was up again and
the firelight lit up the ground for several yards about us. "And look at
the size of them!"
All
round the tent and about the fireplace where we had seen the moving shadows
there were deep funnel-shaped hollows in the sand, exactly similar to the
ones we had already found over the island, only far bigger and deeper,
beautifully formed, and wide enough in some instances to admit the whole
of my foot and leg.
Neither
of us said a word. We both knew that sleep was the safest thing we could
do, and to bed we went accordingly without further delay, having first
thrown sand on the fire and taken the provision sack and the paddle inside
the tent with us. The canoe, too, we propped in such a way at the end of
the tent that our feet touched it, and the least motion would disturb and
wake us.
In case
of emergency, too, we again went to bed in our clothes, ready for a sudden
start.
It was
my firm intention to lie awake all night and watch, but the exhaustion
of nerves and body decreed otherwise, and sleep after a while came over
me with a welcome blanket of oblivion. The fact that my companion also
slept quickened its approach. At first he fidgeted and constantly sat up,
asking me if I "heard this" or "heard that." He tossed about on his
cork mattress, and said the tent was moving and the river had risen over
the point of the island, but each time I went out to look I returned with
the report that all was well, and finally he grew calmer and lay still.
Then at length his breathing became regular and I heard unmistakable sounds
of snoring -- the first and only time in my life when snoring has been
a welcome and calming influence.
This,
I remember, was the last thought in my mind before dozing off.
A difficulty
in breathing woke me, and I found the blanket over my face. But something
else besides the blanket was pressing upon me, and my first thought was
that my companion had rolled off his mattress on to my own in his sleep.
I called to him and sat up, and at the same moment it came to me that the
tent was surrounded. That sound of multitudinous soft pattering was again
audible outside, filling the night with horror.
I called
again to him, louder than before. He did not answer, but I missed the sound
of his snoring, and also noticed that the flap of the tent was down. This
was the unpardonable sin. I crawled out in the darkness to hook it back
securely, and it was then for the first time I realised positively that
the Swede was not here. He had gone.
I dashed
out in a mad run, seized by a dreadful agitation, and the moment I was
out I plunged into a sort of torrent of humming that surrounded me completely
and came out of every quarter of the heavens at once. It was that same
familiar humming -- gone mad! A swarm of great invisible bees might
have been about me in the air. The sound seemed to thicken the very atmosphere,
and I felt that my lungs worked with difficulty.
But
my friend was in danger, and I could not hesitate.
The
dawn was just about to break, and a faint whitish light spread upwards
over the clouds from a thin strip of clear horizon. No wind stirred. I
could just make out the bushes and river beyond, and the pale sandy patches.
In my excitement I ran frantically to and fro about the island, calling
him by name, shouting at the top of my voice the first words that came
into my head. But the willows smothered my voice, and the humming muffled
it, so that the sound only travelled a few feet round me. I plunged among
the bushes, tripping headlong, tumbling over roots, and scraping my face
as I tore this way and that among the preventing branches.
Then,
quite unexpectedly, I came out upon the island's point and saw a dark figure
outlined between the water and the sky. It was the Swede. And already he
had one foot in the river! A moment more and he would have taken the plunge.
I threw
myself upon him, flinging my arms about his waist and dragging him shorewards
with all my strength. Of course he struggled furiously, making a noise
all the time just like that cursed humming, and using the most outlandish
phrases in his anger about "going inside to Them", and "taking the way
of the water and the wind", and God only knows what more besides, that
I tried in vain to recall afterwards, but which turned me sick with horror
and amazement as I listened. But in the end I managed to get him into the
comparative safety of the tent, and flung him breathless and cursing upon
the mattress where I held him until the fit had passed.
I think
the suddenness with which it all went and he grew calm, coinciding as it
did with the equally abrupt cessation of the humming and pattering outside
-- I think this was almost the strangest part of the whole business perhaps.
For he had just opened his eyes and turned his tired face up to me so that
the dawn threw a pale light upon it through the doorway, and said, for
all the world just like a frightened child:
"My
life, old man -- it's my life I owe you. But it's all over now anyhow.
They've found a victim in our place!"
Then
he dropped back upon his blankets and went to sleep literally under my
eyes. He simply collapsed, and began to snore again as healthily as though
nothing had happened and he had never tried to offer his own life as a
sacrifice by drowning. And when the sunlight woke him three hours later
-- hours of ceaseless vigil for me -- it became so clear to me that he
remembered absolutely nothing of what he had attempted to do, that I deemed
it wise to hold my peace and ask no dangerous questions.
He woke
naturally and easily, as I have said, when the sun was already high in
a windless hot sky, and he at once got up and set about the preparation
of the fire for breakfast. I followed him anxiously at bathing, but he
did not attempt to plunge in, merely dipping his head and making some remark
about the extra coldness of the water.
"River's
falling at last," he said, "and I'm glad of it."
"The
humming has stopped too," I said.
He looked
up at me quietly with his normal expression. Evidently he remembered everything
except his own attempt at suicide.
"Everything
has stopped," he said, "because -- "
He hesitated.
But I knew some reference to that remark he had made just before he fainted
was in his mind, and I was determined to know it.
"Because
'They've found another victim'?" I said, forcing a little laugh.
"Exactly,"
he answered, "exactly! I feel as positive of it as though -- as though
-- I feel quite safe again, I mean," he finished.
He began
to look curiously about him. The sunlight lay in hot patches on the sand.
There was no wind. The willows were motionless. He slowly rose to feet.
"Come,"
he said; "I think if we look, we shall find it."
He started
off on a run, and I followed him. He kept to the banks, poking with a stick
among the sandy bays and caves and little back- waters, myself always close
on his heels.
"Ah!"
he exclaimed presently, "ah!"
The
tone of his voice somehow brought back to me a vivid sense of the horror
of the last twenty-four hours, and I hurried up to join him. He was pointing
with his stick at a large black object that lay half in the water and half
on the sand. It appeared to be caught by some twisted willow roots so that
the river could not sweep it away. A few hours before the spot must have
been under water.
"See,"
he said quietly, "the victim that made our escape possible!"
And
when I peered across his shoulder I saw that his stick rested on the body
of a man. He turned it over. It was the corpse of a peasant, and the face
was hidden in the sand. Clearly the man had been drowned, but a few hours
before, and his body must have been swept down upon our island somewhere
about the hour of the dawn -- at the very time the fit had passed.
"We
must give it a decent burial, you know."
"I suppose
so," I replied. I shuddered a little in spite of myself, for there was
something about the appearance of that poor drowned man that turned me
cold.
The
Swede glanced up sharply at me, an undecipherable expression on his face,
and began clambering down the bank. I followed him more leisurely. The
current, I noticed, had torn away much of the clothing from the body, so
that the neck and part of the chest lay bare.
Half-way
down the bank my companion suddenly stopped and held up his hand in warning;
but either my foot slipped, or I had gained too much momentum to bring
myself quickly to a halt, for I bumped into him and sent him forward with
a sort of leap to save himself. We tumbled together on to the hard sand
so that our feet splashed into the water. And, before anything could be
done, we had collided a little heavily against the corpse.
The
Swede uttered a sharp cry. And I sprang back as if I had been shot.
At the
moment we touched the body there rose from its surface the loud sound of
humming -- the sound of several hummings -- which passed with a vast commotion
as of winged things in the air about us and disappeared upwards into the
sky, growing fainter and fainter till they finally ceased in the distance.
It was exactly as though we had disturbed some living yet invisible creatures
at work.
My companion
clutched me, and I think I clutched him, but before either of us had time
properly to recover from the unexpected shock, we saw that a movement of
the current was turning the corpse round so that it became released from
the grip of the willow roots. A moment later it had turned completely over,
the dead face uppermost, staring at the sky. It lay on the edge of the
main stream. In another moment it would be swept away.
The
Swede started to save it, shouting again something I did not catch about
a "proper burial" -- and then abruptly dropped upon his knees on the sand
and covered his eyes with his hands. I was beside him in an instant.
I saw
what he had seen.
For
just as the body swung round to the current the face and the exposed chest
turned full towards us, and showed plainly how the skin and flesh were
indented with small hollows, beautifully formed, and exactly similar in
shape and kind to the sand-funnels that we had found all over the island.
"Their
mark!" I heard my companion mutter under his breath. "Their awful mark!"
And
when I turned my eyes again from his ghastly face to the river, the current
had done its work, and the body had been swept away into mid-stream and
was already beyond our reach and almost out of sight, turning over and
over on the waves like an otter.